The Deliverance

9 tahun pulak

2012-01-10T14:59:00.001+08:00

Salam.

Alhamdulillah. Another year. Ya Allah, limpahkanlah rasa sayang, cinta dan kasihan kepada kami dan bantulah kami menjadi umat2 Mu yang bertakwa. Amin.

Happy anniversary, che' abang.

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Farewell Tuanku Mizan

2011-12-15T10:06:00.001+08:00

Salam,

Dear Tuanku Mizan & Tuanku Zahirah...

Patik merasa sungguh bangga sepanjang berada di bawah tampuk pemerintahan tuanku sbg Agong ke 13 utk tanah tumpah patik.

Walaupon 5 tahun itu boleh dikatakan satu masa yg singkat, tetapi patik tetap merasa kagum di atas kewibawaan tuanku ber2 mentadbir Malaysia. Tuanku ber2 sememangnya ikon Malaysia, khususnya membawa imej sbg sebuah negara Islam.

Amat irihati dgn rakyat Terengganu. Mereka masih berpeluang berada di bawah naungan tuanku lagi. Daulat tuanku!

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Kehilangan...

2011-12-01T14:43:00.004+08:00

Salam...

Kehilangan kali ini dirasai... walaupon demikian, saya menyukai kehilangan yg kali ini...

Berat badan saya turun, Alhamdulillah...

well, maybe not too much, but for someone in this size, saya bersyukur sangat2...

apa yang saya buat, membuahkan hasil...

rasa juga kesihatan tu menaik... Alhamdulillah...

Finally...

2011-11-09T14:53:00.001+08:00

Salam...

Alhamdulillah, been waiting for these all the while. What can I say on the process? Letih!!!

Pls choose the right representatives and seller concerning your property. If not, u'll end up like me. Menunggu buah yg lama nak gugur...

Nevermind, whatever it is, I'm happy it's all landed safely on my palm. Can't wait to be inside the box... Lalalalala

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New Regime

2011-10-14T13:09:00.003+08:00

Salam,

Saya kena berhijrah. Bukan kerja (Alhamdulillah, kerja sekarang tidak selalu 'menensikan' saya), tapi dari segi tahap kesihatan saya...

berat badan saya dah semakin naik...

selera toksah cakap laa, makin mencanak2... saya ni bukan jenis sekali makan kena banyak, moderate laaa, tp nak kena selalu makan... kalau moderate + selalu = NAIK!

Insya Allah, dalam masa terdekat, saya akan memulakan tugasan penting...

membina semula keyakinan diri.

Macam mana?

HCG diet.

"I decided to go for it, not I think I wanna do it", as someone told me...

let see kalau saya berjaya buat mcm dia, as dia motivate diri dia dgn membeli 3 pasang seluar Levi's - 3 size down...

hari2 cuba, lama2 boleh!

saya? well, I want more AZAs... so this is antara caranya... kena kuruskan badan.

Cuba buat yg ini, yg lain, He who decides... Insya Allah...

Bismillah...

It'ss all about him, him, him...

2011-09-29T10:36:00.004+08:00

Salam,

Alhamdulillah, AZA my hero can now read a book (with big fonts). I started to train him by first introducing him to letters - not only let him recognizes the alphabets, but the sound that it makes as well... good to know, he memorizes and later got the concept when I just asked him to combine the sound they produce when more than 1 letter combined...

Back then it was funny when I saw expressions he made to make the letter sound... Imagine letter 'R', like lion's roar, or something like that... kelakar betul kalau dia nak menunjukkan singa tu garang...

Then, with the help of a set of books- Malay and English... siri Cepat Baca for Malay and I Can Read for English... seriously sangat membantu! I seriously recommend these books to every parents who wants to teach their kids on how to read...

Some parents question why should they expose their kids to reading when they are <5yrs... banyak yg cakap taknak pressure anak2, because what they should do is just play, sleep, eat, or something like that...

Well, I have no objection on that... tapi what I was doing when I first introduced alphabets, reading to AZA, I thought... "takpe laaa, sikit2 jek, no pressure... kalau dia taknak, then let him have his own space"... but I do it mostly everyday... Alhamdulillah, AZA was very interested, especially when he got the answers to all the pop quizzes yg I tanya masa dalam kereta, kami main2 game "I Spy..." Now he can read at 4yo 2mo last June... Now, what he continuously doing is to spell everything (yg kadang2 pon ada tunggang terbalik)... :)

He also recognizes all the Arabic letters now (belajar dgn Nenek Zah dia)... tapi semenjak masuk sek baru ni dia dah berenti mengaji... haritu dia tahu baca tanda2 tu sikit... (nak kena carik buku mengaji pulak)... Insya Allah I want him to be good both akhirat & duniawi, aminnn...

Oh yaa... he no longer attends Tadika Seri Intan... the teachers and the van driver were so sad when I told them that AZA is attending a new kindy + nursery near to my office (in fact the place is managed by my office)... they said AZA is a nice boy and a good student...

On behalf of AZA and the family, I thank you all the educators in TSI, for once have imprinted

a good mark throughout his journey to become a good Allah's servant.

p/s: pix above is his new school uniform... Hensem kan? no longer pakai baju fink! Dah x Donald Trump dah dia... eekekkeke

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Berita Baik!

2011-08-12T10:18:00.001+08:00

Salam...

Bukannya tujuan nak promosi barang, ubat kuat atau yg seangkatan. Tapi semalam dapat tau berita yang sangat menggembirakan...

Alhamdulillah. U know who u are. I'm happy for u, can't wait...

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Ramadhan Kareem

2011-08-01T08:06:00.005+08:00

Salam,

Alhamdulillah, we are given another chance to experience Ramadhan and of course, to improve ourselves. Hopefully it will be something permanent, all the good deeds and the increased value of the iman... Insya Allah...

so all friends observing this holy month, lets make this one a fulfilling one, we never know we will have the same chance, of another Ramadhan...

Barakah!

2011-07-30T20:00:00.001+08:00

Salam,

I can't help but to write this...

I know I have to be forgiving somehow, a sister must act the way a sister should be...

but I can't help it. I tried...

In respect of Ramadhan, I do not plan to have this sour feeling and infect people surround me, and I hope the same thing happen in return.

But something had happened. On last Friday, marked the second year of my dad's passing. My mom decided to organize a 'kenduri tahlil' the nite before at the surau next to her place. At the same time, there was a big football match, much awaited match; M'sia vs S'pore...

I had to sacrifice, not going to the match... No! it was not even a sacrifice. When the kenduri was for my arwah bapak, one could not top the priority. End of story. There is no second thot of either you should go to the match, or make yourself available for the kenduri.

But the king and the queen of the house were not around. Can you guess where were they? At the STADIUM! Having the blast of their lives!!! My mom told me that the king had to work that nite, since he was working with this one football association, so ok, understood.

But can you get it when the queen told my mom that she was going out, to the stadium? Well, she is not working with that assoc, and she wasn't even needed at the stadium as volunteer or whatever... she had to be at home, or the surau to recite doa for his FIL...

I know she never had any opportunity to know my arwah bapak, but still...!

show some respect and empathy to us, esp my mom... when you are still living under her roof, and you could still do that... uurgghhhhh!

whatever it is, I put the blame on the king... for not enforcing the queen! you know you should tell her to be present when you could not be around... urggghh! some people are so thick- skinned!

and the next day, that Fri nite... our family went to 'meminang' for my youngest brother. Guess who wasn't around, for the reason that he was tired and just got back from work?

BINGO! You got that right!

Did he care to send his queen as his rep?

BINGO! You got that right, too!

Look who's incharge...

2011-07-19T13:45:00.002+08:00

Need to say more? :)

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Loss of a Friend

2011-07-03T21:06:00.001+08:00

Salam...

Tgh hari tadi aku dpt satu text msg, katanya dia husband pada arwah isteri dia yg dah meninggal minggu leaps. Sbb aku dah tukar phone, nombor org pon banyak aku x save, so aku pulak mcm x tau siapakah isterinya itu...

Maghrib ni baru dapat jawapan... Kawan aku masa kami hantar anak2 pegi Alimkids Playgroup... Sedihnya... Semoga Allah menempatkan arwah Kak Noraini bersama para anbia' Insya Allah

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Father's Day Celeb: Dinner @ Ben's KLCC

2011-06-19T21:30:00.002+08:00

Salam...

We are now at Ben's, KLCC... makan2 utk Hari Bapa, just the 3 of us.

The location was once used to be California Pizza Kitchen (CPK), now the ambience has changed, more relaxing, jazz musics are played... And the food, not bad I would say...

The father ordered Duck Confit Spaghetini, the father's son ordered chicken and mushroom pie, while the father's wife (that's me!) ordered Soft-shelled Crab Spaghetini. I love mine, truly recommended, and the price is of course, KLCC- priced... Oklah, boleh direpeat bila gaji masuk :)

To MAM, you are one truly great daddy to our son. May our love and the dedication to be great parents are blessed by Allah SWT. I love you with all my heart... Happy father's day to my arwah bapak... And of course, my FIL, too... love you!

The menu...

X tau kenapa dia buat mcm ni...

Daddy dan itiknya...

Can u spot my crab? Oh crap! My camera isn't high- end...

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New Class at Blubricks. Ampang

2011-06-18T11:49:00.002+08:00

Mommy and Daddy are registering me for new speech and drama class next week. Today I went to their trial class, i had so much fun...

I was shy at first, but after few hops, crawling and exchange short stories, mom and dad are determined to sign me up...

The End...

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Total Eclipse of The Moon

2011-06-16T18:33:00.003+08:00

Salam.

Last nite I witnessed one of Allah's greatest signs. The moon or lunar eclipse. It was an impromptu plan with en. MAM. Heard from a radio station that there'll be lots of activities in conjunction with this event at Masjid Negara.

So we made a move at 2am as the solat sunat would start at 3am. Once arrived, registered ourselves, and made way to few big telescopes to have a closer look at the moon. Subhanallah. Maybe I don't know how to appreciate those solar system's wonders as those astronomists, but I truly digested the beauty as one regular 'masyarakat biasa'...

Allah is Great!

View when we first arrived

My hero was having his moment

My turn now

Khutbah after solat sunat gerhana bulan. Semoga umat Islam mengambil setiap iktibar dari apa yg Allah telah janjikan akan terjadi...

Screen showing view from what's seen in Sabah. Unfortunately, the full eclipse in KL was hidden due to heavy clouds surrounding the moon.

Off to breakfast... Funny, people leaving clubs and karaoke joints nearby, and they had this weird face seeing us in baju melayu and jubah.

I'm finally home. Ya Allah, jadikanlah aku seorang hambaMu yang solehah. Amin...

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Pengantin Baru

2011-06-13T16:38:00.002+08:00

Salam...

Banyak masa yg terbuang, tapi tak di update jugak blog ni. Roz malas... Memang!

Adik ipar I dah selamat jadi isteri orang. Alhamdullillah, semua smooth. Cumanya, masa malam berinai, ghazal kena diberentikan, sbb DBKL call kata dpt complaints dari jiran2. Bosan tau kalau buat majlis kawin di area2 'mat saleh' ni... Nyampah!
Yg lain2, semua ikut skrip. Bagus, x sia2 buat family meeting sampai pkl 2-3 pagi...

I x banyak amik gambar, jadik AJK laa katakan. Yg mana I sempat snap jek laa ye.

Masa nikah ni...

Acara nikah dah abis... Kami amik tpt posing wajib.

Anak I yg nak tgk baju keturunan dia dari dekat... Teka baju apa? Ni masa majlis berinai besar...

I lupa laa nak amik gambar masa dia punya reception. Cantik betul dress dia. Sangat dipuji dan terpuji... Congrats Na & Adrian.

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Mari bersiap- sedia

2011-06-01T12:21:00.002+08:00

Salam...

Keluarga belah ipar tgh sangat bz. Adik ipar nak nikah/ kawin weekend ni. Baju2 saya tak amik lagi dari tailor, jahit manik. Cuak pulak tiba2.

Mlm tadi pegi Duchess Place utk last min discussion deko. Kita tgk je laaa apa yg jadik nanti. List sedara2 mak dah overflow. Macam mana DP nak accommodate? Takpelaaa, bior deme mikiorkannye...

*teaser dulu...

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I'm so sorry...

2011-05-30T20:41:00.001+08:00

Salam...

Just a quick updates. A very close person to me has ended one of her major phase in life. A very sad ending when from small we were told fairy tales do exist. All she hoped was there would always be a happy ending in a marriage.

Sadly, the wound is more unbearable when it involves little people. How can u look right in their eyes and tell them mama n papa are no longer together like before. Would they understand why? Would they care? Ntah laaa, Allah knows best...

To you my dear, be strong. As I always tell you, everything happens for a reason. Maybe this is an indication that we are getting closer to him, who knows? Don't forget, always be faithful to Allah, and we'll be rewarded. I love you, my dear!

Family Portrait

2011-05-30T15:33:00.003+08:00

Salam...

My family portrait. I think this was when I was 2, during raya in my mom's hometown, Black H2o. Not in the picture, my youngest brother...

I miss my arwah bapak. Mmg nampak hensem dgn cara pemakaian samping yg askar2 pakai. And of course, he was one proud askar melayu dulu.

Hmmm, agak2 ada tak orang nak pakai samping mcm ni lagi?

Love you!

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Which one would you prefer?

2011-05-26T11:03:00.002+08:00

Salam...

Just a question, which of these would u go after?

Mine definitely the 'smaller' brand. It has captured attention since the day I started familiarize myself with designer coffee brand. Lots of memories are built around the brand :chewah: Asal awal bulan dapat duit Mara, we'd spent some buying their ice-blended... The players were always me, U*a, Ch*h and So*d...

Oh yeah, another thing is that, bigger brand supports that regime (saya baru ada kesedaran, maafkan saya)... Will try my best not to be the supporter.

On other note, Insya Allah Ahad ni saya akan attend ini seminar. For those who hasn't plan anything, let's see each other this Sunday.

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Alhamdulillah

2011-05-25T10:03:00.002+08:00

Salam...

Disclaimer:
I am posting this not to brag, what else to underestimate other children's capability. This is merely expressing my gratitude to Allah's blessings... Alhamdulillah

AZA just got his results for mid- term test. He's only 4, i know. But there's never too early nor too late for education. When I first sent him to school, some ppl questioned us on the decision. You know best when it involves your kids, Insya Allah...

AZA, thanks for this. We hope you are having so much fun at school, ergo the results... Let's try our best to keep this; Mommy & Daddy continue spending time to make learning fun @ home, and you to know gaining knowledge is fun too! I love sayang!

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Just Colors...

2011-04-19T12:34:00.003+08:00

Salam...

Just thot let the pix will let the story unfold... *sebenarnya malas nak type*

To my beloved son, AZA...

"You will always be in my doa, everyday... without fail, Insya Allah... Mommy sentiasa doakan Adam menjadi anak yg soleh, an obedient servant to Allah... you are just as sweet as you are supposed to be, I could not ask for more... I love you with all my heart, you took away all the sadness, loneliness when you were not around... Semoga Allah sentiasa menggembirakan kita sekeluarga... aminn.."

It's DONE!

2011-04-13T14:50:00.003+08:00

Salam...

Alhamdulillah, semua dah settle... mak bapak yg bekerja keras nak menjadikan birthday anak dia menjadik kenyataan sudah terjadik... saya suka! biasa laa, dalam hal2 menyelenggara birthday anak2 ni, mak pak dia yg terlebih excited, selalunya mmg mak2 yg mcm ni...

nanti saya cerita lagi.. kalau bukan saya, anak saya laa.. Insya Allah...

sementara tu, mari tgk gambar kek anak saya...

Idea saya yg nak letak aeroplane kat situ... :)

Ingat mula2 nak tempah kek yg bentuk aeroplane, mahal sangat... yg penting lps tu anak saya boleh main dgn aeroplane tu... :)

Just around the corner...

2011-03-29T16:17:00.002+08:00

Salam...

saya penat! sepatutnya semua dah siap, plan dan tunggu masa nak execute...

tapi ntah kenapa tahun ni mcm buat benda separuh jalan je...

tak best betul laaa...

saya nak anak saya gembira...

Hati Ibu...

2011-03-24T18:25:00.003+08:00

Salam,

argghhh... i'm still mad at this person! I thot I could just forget what he did... yeah, reconcile or better yet, speak like we were supposed to be...

somehow, u dont deserve my respect. when you dont have that respect to other people, especially your mother, then forget about other ppl respecting you... gila punya wish!

I just hope Allah do what's best for him...

p/s: I love you, Mak!

Ring a Cling Cling...

2011-02-23T12:30:00.000+08:00

Salam...

I lost my engagement ring today... Fell into the conventional type of toilet bowl. Couldn't do anything to save it. End of story. Tsk... Tsk... Tsk...

p/s: Insya Allah ada hikmah... amin.

AZA: My First Day...

2011-01-11T08:00:00.001+08:00

Bismillah...

I start school today, mommy and daddy enrolled me in a kindy close to my house...

After few places that they thought of sending me to, they settled for this school.

They were sure to send me to a different school at first, but it was full ~~school~~ house, but mommy promised me to go to that school next year, Insya Allah...

A Blessed Year Indeed...

2010-12-16T11:30:00.002+08:00

Salam...

I have been ignoring this place for sometimes now... I made few pit-stops here, just to go and visited other friends' blogs, clicking their links away... and yet, too hesitant to write my own thoughts and stories...

Just to recap on this year's journey (Salam Awal Muharram 1432 and Happy New Year 2011 in advance), I would say Alhamdulillah, overall it's been a good and blessed journey for myself, and to the others too, Insya Allah...

I finally got to perform my umrah early this year, and hope I can come back soon to perform my Hajj, Insya Allah...
In terms of career, I am no longer zoned in the place that I called hell... I had the opportunity to change to a new place early of the year and Alhamdulillah, I'm happy to be where I belong...
My recent assessment: I performed above average, Alhamdulillah... yeay! more bonus to come, maybe??? hahaha, yeah right!
Me and MAM sealed a deal to get ourselves a brand new place, it may not look luxurious to some people, but money well- spent, Insya Allah...
AZA has blossomed to be a healthy and bubbly boy... he has quite extensive vocabularies for children of his age... love every bits of him...
MAM got few new projects, he seems a bit hectic but he's good in managing those... Good for you, B... LU2eM!
EQ- wise: I think I've improved my patience level, I made doa to Allah often, and try to forgive people... Insya Allah...

and the list continues... but these are among the most significant ones to me. In essence, let's work harder for our betterment for the coming new year... Most importantly, let's be better in performing our duties to Allah... after all, He decides what we succeed and what we not...

Allah bless!

Isk.. Tak Sabar!

2010-10-28T17:31:00.002+08:00

Salam,

Am still at the office... I should be going home an hour ago... the no-traffic-jam situation would be bliss for everybody... Imagine I would be driving home at 4.30pm... mana nak dapat dalam KL ni? kecuali mengulor le kaaaannnnn... :)

But I'm still here? Kenapa?

sebab I'm meeting someone... Going to get something from her...

I can only tell you tomorrow...

Orang tua2 kata, kalau belum jadi, takleh bagitau... nanti tak jadi... :)

Alhamdulillah...

2010-10-20T16:22:00.002+08:00

Salam,

Just finished a session with my boss... they were having managers' meeting on year- end assessment this morning. I don't really know what I'll be getting (between 1 - 5, 5 is with significant impact), but my boss discussed what are the feedbacks given from other managers about me...

Basically, they see great potential in me... how? they are voting my name to lead my team in this one particular project.

But I am not just happy for that, I am just happy because I feel that I belong here... Alhamdulillah. Thank you Allah for the opportunity.

Nak Kasik Anak Pandai

2010-10-20T14:40:00.002+08:00

Salam...

semalam aku bertekad nak ajar AZA, benda2 simple je... draw a square, then kenal green color...

mula2 tu sabar, lama2 tak berapa... kesian pulak...

harini nak ajar lagi, Insya Allah...

tapi nak cuba sabar2kan... dan make it a fun session for him... supaya dia tak bosan...

(mak dalam keadaan bersalah... sbb anak baru 3 thn, tp garang mlm tadi mcm AZA dah umur 6 thn... duh!)

Sayangku...

2010-09-21T14:28:00.006+08:00

Salam,

I have nothing to blog about lately, not that anything uninteresting happened... every occasion has their own favorite stamp! But I prefer to read other peoples' blogs currently (penyakit malas pon ye...)

It's been a while since I last blog about my one and only apple... AZA.

When he was 1 year plus, I taught him to answer me "Yes, Mommy Sayangku..." whenever I call him... Alhamdulillah, up until now he still answers me that way... even to mr. hubs callings, he'll answer "Yes, Daddy Sayangku..."

Semoga menjadi anak yg soleh & sentiasa diredhai... amin.

Banyak Kejadian di Bulan Ramadhan

2010-09-08T12:09:00.003+08:00

Salam...

haa, lama tak update punya pasal, banyak cerita berkepuk2 yg aku tak tulis... Antaranya:

1. Birthday aku last week. Alhamdulillah, dapat hadiah yg no. 2 dalam list aku dari MAM dan bunga mekar sejambak dari anak yg delivered to the office... sweet sungguh kamu! pakat ngan bapak eh ye?

2. Thn ni aku mcm rasa banyak kali gak aku bukak puasa berlaukkan ketam... padahal aku ni bukan kaki ketam... sbb aku tak tahan gatal dalam telinga yg aku tak tau mana nak garu... tp kali ni, kegatalan tu cam aku boleh buat bodo... (Ya Allah, sedapnya buttered crab kat Bangsar Seafood)...

3. Aku dah abis membeli barang2 raya, except tudung cantik yg glam dan kasut MIL aku.. jap lagi lunchtime aku nak gi Jln. TAR.. harus laa aku bersedia mental dan fizikal nak menyiku org yg jalan ganas...

4. Raya thn ni kat belah aku, so balik kg aku... YES! pastu raya kedua aku dah berjalan ke LKG. YES! lagi sekali...

5. Thn ni aku buat choc chips yg femes di belah2 inlaws aku.. pujaan ramai tahun lepas. Tapi tahun ni, sob... sob... dia keras! kurang liquids laa pulak! aku rasa aku nak simpan buat batu seremban...

6. First time in 6 years, baju raya aku takde beadings!!! warrggghhhhh... gila! camana nak melaram di pagi raya??? takkan aku nak spoilkan mood raya over the beadings??? kena laa sikit, tak banyak pon tak takpe.. janji feeling 'handicapped' tu ada...

7. tadi aku berjaya melawan arus deras manusia dekat jalan TAR? kenapa aku menggila ke situ lagi 2-3 hari nak raya ni? tu laa, cuba menjadi menantu yg baik, kenalah diberikan hadiah kepada ibu mertua (bapak mertua dah dapat dah)... tu yg ke sana tu.. kalau tak, takde deeeee...

8. aku tak gosok kaki lagi... mcm mana????

anyways, Selamat Hari Raya... mintak maaf atas segala ketelanjuran... kalau ada yg tersilap tulis yg mengguris hati, maafkan jek laaa ye...

Angin dan Pergi Berbekam

2010-08-23T14:35:00.004+08:00

Salam...

I was down with muscle pain last fri and it lasted until yesterday...

gila sakit oiiii! tak tipu...

After I got back from the office (naik LRT lagi kakak ni that day), picked my son and MIL's place, borrowed her car and off to my mom's place...

time tu dah start sakit2 dah... the pain occured on both shoulders... bila I tekan2, rasa keras dan sakit... tak tenderloin langsung!

so after bukak puasa, I baring and tido, sampai laa hubs came back from bukak puasa with his clients... time tu, Astaghfirullah, punya laa sakit... then my hubs off to play futsal pulak, tinggal lagi aku yg dalam kesakitan dgn anak aku... mengiring salah, telentang salah... dah laa dgn my jubilant yg nak hug jek tido, lagi laa mak kau ni sakit, nak oiiiii!

On Saturday, it got worst... I could only lie down and mengerang (puasa tetap menten, Alhamdulillah)... now the pain has moved to both arms, more on kebas laa, sampai nak angkat pon tak boleh... I knew it was 'angin' because I kept burping and *pfff*... when it's time to break of fast, it was no longer there, Alhamdulillah.. but somewhere around midnite, it came back! sakit lagi oiiii! dah, dah... tomorrow I'll go for bekam, I told my hubs.

So, yesterday... BEKAM it is! guess what???? My head has this one spot shaven, so bekam can be performed there... and at the back of my body, I have another 3 same spots... dan skarang rasa mcm dah sihat jek... Alhamdulillah.

Tapi kena repeat... what??? adakah kepalaku akan rupa cenggini?

Unwell...

2010-08-13T09:41:00.008+08:00

Salam...

Haishh... I'm in no 'sick-free-day' zone today...

It all started last Wed, I got sore throat, and my nose started to become watery (ada kaa?)

was on MC yesterday, and today, thought things will be ok... and yet, worst still...

Oh Allah, let me breathe easily... amin...

How Laaa?

2010-08-11T09:06:00.002+08:00

Salam,

Aduyaiiii... camana nak buat eh?

Aku nak cuba pegi terawih tiap2 malam (kalau berkesempatan)...

tapi anak aku???

semalam aku bawak dia, walaupon berbakul2 pesanan dari rumah, masuk kereta, sampai ke masjid suruh dia jangan buat bising...

last2 aku dengar suara anak aku antara yg terhappy sekali bermain... haishhhh!

camana? nak tinggalkan dgn sapa? mak aku sure konfem nak pegi...

haruskah aku yg dok rumah sahaja? hmmmm....

I am Waiting...

2010-08-09T16:14:00.002+08:00

Salam...

It is almost here... I am truly excited. I wanna have it filled with ibadah, good deeds and positive minds, Insya Allah...

"Ya Allah, hanya Engkau sahaja yang berupaya menjadikan segala perancangan aku berjaya... Berilah aku kekuatan emosi, fizikal dan mental utk aku mengharungi Ramadhan ini... Bantulah aku, supaya Ramadhan ini menjadi Ramadhan yang terbaik dari Ramadhan2 sebelum ini... amin..."

Some of the things that I plan for this Ramadhan, Insya Allah:

1. Perform terawih as much as I can at masjid/ musolla

2. Finish reciting Holy Quran by end of Ramadhan

3. Sadaqah

4. Compliment other people...

5. More prudent in food spending, thus less food wastage

6. Iftar with my family i.e. MAM, AZA and my mom (as much as I can)

7. Strictly perform my prayers on time, no more 'twinning'...

To all friends, Salam Ramadhan... let us seek blessings from Allah for ourselves and our loved ones... May He accepts our doa and prayers... amin...

Pernah Rindu Tak?

2010-08-05T11:22:00.005+08:00

Salam...

1. Lepas abis sekolah (primary school specifically) beli sengkuang yg ada sapu kuah merah pastu tabur kacang atas tu? (Mana nak dapat kuah tu eh?)

2. Nyanyi lagu Negaraku + lagu sekolah during assembly pada pagi Isnin (during primary) dan pagi Jumaat (during sek menengah)... I dont know, tapi everytime kena nyanyi, some of my friends buat muka monyok... ye laa bosan kot, but me and my bestfriends made a pact that we would sing dengan penuh semangat yg tinggi... bila part hi- note, takde hal nak tarik suara laaa... then we would smile to each other... we are proud to be Malaysian and students of that school...

3. perasaan menunggu hari Sabtu datang during schooldays dulu (skrang dah keja pon sama) sebab boleh kluar melepak beramai2 dgn kawan2... dan kenal ramai kawan2 from other schools? Dulu zaman saya term bohsia tu dah ada, tapi bohjan mana datang ntah? Kami suka melepak2 bercerita2, tak buat perangai tak senonoh... kira lepak kami berhemah laaa :)

4. naik/ turun bas nak pegi mana2? skrang nak hidu asap bas pon jarang!

5. malam2 kalau sambil study tu bukak radio nak dengar Pilihan Bersama, mcm excited nak record lagu2 favorite, or sibuk dok salin lirik (terlupa nak study)

6. Beli susu yg promoted thru Program Susu Sekolah atau Vitagen? Pastu kalau tak beli (sbb parents tak berapa cukup duit nak beli) bila tgk kawan2 dapat, mcm sedih/ envy?

7. Nak nyanyi kuat2 dalam bilik air, pastu perasan mcm Sheila Majid tgh nyanyi lagu Sinaran (glamer betul lagu ni time tu)... sekali tu aku kluar bilik air, arwah bapak aku sound... "Sedap suara..." Dah terbangga kejap... skali dia sambung, "Ni kalau mengaji Quran pon sama sedap jugak ni, baik mengaji, pahala pon dapat!" teeetttttt... terus termalu :")

8. Baca Majalah Kuntum, Dewan Kanak- Kanak, dan lain2 jenis majalah untuk kanak2... cuba nak masuk Peraduan Mewarna, tapi tak cantik, terus cancel nak hantar...

9. Kalau naik bas sekolah, nak duduk dekat tangga... terasa cam best! Sekali pakcik bas marah... "Masuk, masuk... karang jatuh sapa nak tanggung?" Pastu bila tpt aku dah kena amik ngan budak lelaki, pakcik tu relaks plak, tak bising pon dia? Gender inequality betul laa pakcik tu!

10. Tanya mak apa yg mak boleh prepare sbb esoknya tu ada Class Party yg akhir tahun... mak aku selalu akan bising sbb kasik tau last minute... last2 paling senang goreng fries... masa tu fries sangat susah didapati... so aku punya fries selalu jadik hit laaa.... ehehhe.. thank you, mak!

tu antara memories yg aku rindu... ada banyak lagi... korang?

p/s: To my goodfriend Z*l, sorry to hear abt your dad's passing... Semoga dia bersama orang2 yg soleh, Insya Allah... lets play our part as his child, even he's gone... doakan dia selalu...

Pic credits to: Google

Pencuri Hantu & Barang2ku...

2010-08-02T15:00:00.004+08:00

Salam...

Jumaat haritu (30 Julai '10) lps balik keja, aku singgah restoran mak aku... dung- dang dung- dang ~~masak~~ melepet sambil melayan Kemuncak Imam Muda (yeay, Asyraf menang...! and I like Hizbur too... plus their wives muka sangat comel dan suci...) dalam pkl 11 malam macam tu, aku pon balik...

setibanya kami di rumah, kami pon ready2 nak tido... dgn MAM yg dari awal2 mengadu sakit kepala, pastu AZA pulak mmg dah tunjuk tanda2 kepenatan, aku pon mcm nak landing laa...

sekali aku tgk ada mcm serpihan tiles kat atas katil aku... mcm agak pelik laa jugak, sbb aku kluar last dari rumah pagi tadi, mmg konfem takde apa2 atas katil... so aku masuk bilik air, nak check ada ke tiles yg tercabut ke... takde laa pulak! ntah mcm mana aku tergerak nak check kat dressing table aku tu... (dressing table aku mmg ~~berserabut~~ banyak barang).. aku perati elok2... sekali aku perasan tabung AZA takde!!! 2 tabung pulak tu, yg aku ngan suami aku rajin masukkan duit coins... tabung tu dah pecah, ada kat bilik sebelah kena robek! (chah, the tabung was given by you, when AZA was born! *tsk*tsk*)

belek punya belek... ada few items dah takde... rupanya2 rumah aku kena masuk pencuri!!! tapi bila kitorang check ada tak pintu/ tingkap kena umpil, takde pulak apa2 kesan... agak musykil di situ... last2 kitorang cam assume pencuri tu dok masuk dari ceiling, ye laaa sbb tu jek cara yg dorang boleh masuk dalam rumah... hangin betul laaa.. ni dah kali ke 2 rumah yg sama kena.. dulu losses lagi banyak, Alhamdulillah yg ni tak laa teruk, tapi some of the missing items tu ada sentimental value to me and to the family *sob*sob*

kami nak pindah!!!

In Memory

2010-07-29T13:36:00.001+08:00

Salam,

On this day, last year... I lost my bapak...

Al- Fatihah...

Right Now...

2010-07-22T14:20:00.002+08:00

Salam,

I know I've been very bad lately in posting updates, stories in this blog. I don't know, there are no fit reasons to support the action...

but one thing for sure, I like what I'm doing at the moment... probably last time I was so stressful, hence the writings ~~yg kebanyakkannya yg bukan2~~... hehehhe

skarang sangat happy, yes aaaa?

ok laaa, takde laa berserabut mcm dulu kan... muka asyik macam nak menangis jek :) (that's what people told me...)

Kenapa Kau Macam tu haaaa?

2010-06-29T16:58:00.002+08:00

Salam,

lately ni aku selalu sakit hati ngan si polan ni... dah laa selalu menyakitkan hati mak aku, aku nak tgk muka kau pon aku menyampah...

skarang kau nak masukkan sekali nama bini kau dalam hate list aku? silakannnnnn... be my guest!

pastu malam tadi mak aku dah kecik ati pulak dgn aku pasal si polan ni... nak jek aku sepak polan tu kasik tergolek!

sorry aku emo lately ni! polan ni lah!

Bapak, Abah and B

2010-06-20T17:59:00.000+08:00

Salam...

Happy father's day to those three iconic figure in my life.. All of them contributed major impact to my life...

To arwah bapak, I love you so much! Even I can't express it explicitly, He knows my love towards you... Alfatihah...

To abah, thanks for raising your son as he is... and thanks for sharing your love as though I am your own daughter...

To my B, you showers great love, and affection to our son with some discipline and strictness to add the taste... I love you in depth for that! May you continue to be the best leader in the family, Insya Allah...

This entry is dedicated to all of them and other dads around the world... Happy Father's Day!

What I want...

2010-06-10T12:02:00.002+08:00

salam...

at the moment is a sewing machine... not a complicated one, just a regular one that can perform basic sewing plus some intermediate functions...

agak2 ok aci tak kalau mintak utk hadiah birthday?

While I Still Can Dream...

2010-05-24T11:48:00.002+08:00

Salam...

I want to...

1. be the best companion to my husband

2. be the coolest mother to my child(ren)

3. offer mak a hand in anything that she needs

4. take lots and lots of babies' pictures (enhancing my photography skills)

5. do bungee jumping, white- water rafting and paragliding

6. own a family business; husband as CEO, me as MD, kids as Exec. Dirs.

7. overcome my fears on swimming in the open sea and COCKROACHES (yikes!)

8. own a bungalow with my own ideas of decorations

9. have one mega birthday bash that has big bouncy castle for adults to go nuts!

10. have my own car that is only a two- seater car (car plate starts with RR)

11. own a Chanel Jumbo

12... and lots more...

(there are a lot more... too tired to ketuk the keyboard)...

Pulling My Socks Up... again!

2010-05-19T17:00:00.005+08:00

Salam...

Tomorrow I'm gonna start to see my O&G back...

I plan to, again do the treatment in order to provide new adik for AZA (Insya Allah :)

I've been planning for this since late last year actually, but being me with high difficulty in conceiving, it was a prolonged plan...

pity my son that he plays alone... or only with adults in the house...

funny when he said that there's a baby in his tummy (imitating my SIL who just gave birth)...

glad when my friends keep adding the number of their family members... (envy a bit, tho!)

happy to start recollecting babies stuff or re-use AZA's 'hand-me-down' props...

hopeful to keep doa to Allah to fulfill my wish... Aminnnn...

“Wahai Tuhanku! Kurniakanlah kepadaku dari sisi-Mu zuriat keturunan yang baik. Sesungguhnya Engkau sentiasa Mendengar (menerima) doa.”

(Ali- Imran, ayat 38)

Home, here I come... and Thomas Cup, too...

2010-05-14T17:27:00.003+08:00

Salam...

dah nak balik... nak kena naik lrt, pegi ofis suamiku... from there balik umah sesama...

dah tukar kasut, takmo pakai heels... sbb jauh nak jalan to lrt station...

opt for crocs... walaupon tak jive dgn handbag dan baju, I dont care!

take care guys... have a good weekend!

and pray kita masuk final for Thomas Cup ok? Insya Allah...

(takde tiket, dah abis! takpe.. kalau masuk final, I'll make sure I nak pegi)... amin!

FB Uncovered

2010-05-13T15:37:00.003+08:00

Salam...

OK, I am in a predicament at the moment...

I consider myself as a semi- heavy user (not heavy when I'm home :) of FB, considering I will check my FB page every hour... and respond to messages or comment on other ppl's photo (ye laaa, networking kan...)

Then, one day my boss told me...

Boss: Do u know that in this dept, one of the ways for us to communicate is thru FB?

Me: Oh really? *dalam hati* pls dont ask me to add you... I separate personal and career ok?*

Boss: You see, sometimes we cant get hold of a person thru phone, email... but FB does help! Somehow FB's function in outreaching ppl is more proven... Besides, FB can do more than just networking, games, etc.. u know!

Me: Yup... betul tu! *dalam hati* rolling my eyes... I'm hooked to FB laaa, brader! game jek gua tak main*

Boss: If you see, DD has 2 laptops, one for work- related thingy, and on his mac, he has his FB and twitter and banyak lagi laaa in ON mode... he believes in these tools, too...

Then... the order pon terkeluar... ayat yg ditakuti utk didengarkan...

Boss: So, u can add me and the other friends, managers, and DD... as your friends...

Oh Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.......!!!!!!

How laaaa? I have this principle, I do not accept friend requests if that person is in the same section with me... I only accept you if we are only in different sections (within the same dept)...

apatah lagi manager kan?

ini nak add satu dept? are you serioussssssss?

Happy Mother's Day

2010-05-10T14:19:00.002+08:00

Salam,

Happy Mother's Day to all lovely mothers out day... including me!

This year I celebrated together with my hubby, son, my youngest brother and most importantly... my mother!

I love you, mak!

Perjalanan Ke Tanah Haram...

2010-04-21T15:36:00.004+08:00

Salam...

saya dah lama tak update kan? Saya 'hilang' selama 2 minggu, lps tu bila dah balik ke ofis, saya malas nak berblog.. so terbiar mcm tu jek laaa blog saya..

Alhamdulillah, saya dah selamat pegi dan balik... remember ada satu entry saya yg saya tulis saya dah book something? saya dah booked nak pegi umrah... jadi saya telah berlepas hari Isnin 29 march terus ke Madinah (singgah jap kat Riyadh, sbb nak turunkan org, aku ngan laki aku sekali turun sbb excited... belakang kitorang kena halau naik flight balik bersama lagi 2 jemaah Malaysia... semua akibat tak dengar announcement)

sampai Madinah... Subhanallah... aku mmg cam nak nangis! tak sangka sampai laa kan.. penat ke, dah lewat malam ke, aku tak kisah.. terus aku ajak laki aku straight pegi Masjid Nabawi gak... dorang kata pintu masjid tutup pkl 11 mlm, aku sampai dah pkl 10.30mlm... mmg tinggal harapan jek laa kan, aku solat kat depan pintu jek (ropa2nya ada pintu yg bukak laki aku cakap, aku jek yg taknak round depan2 lagi sikit... laki aku dapat masuk masjid, dan siap dapat solat dalam Raudhah lagi)... takpe laa rezeki dia...

3 hari spend kat Madinah, Khamis mlm Jumaat tu kitorang gerak pegi Makkah... Alhamdulillah, dapat buat umrah malam jumaat tu... mmg ramai, rupa2nya mmg ramai org buat umrah kalau malam jumaat, tu mutawwif yg cakap... berkat lebih agaknya kot...

dekat Makkah spend 11 hari... mmg tak rasa jemu, penat... dan tak ingat apa2 kat Malaysia ni... semua tumpuan hanya pada Allah! dan aku rasa everytime waktu solat, aku akan cuba mendapatkan 'port' yg baik iaitu bila angkat takbir, mata aku nampak kaabah! Alhamdulillah, most of times aku dapat...

Overall, kepada kawan2 yg membaca posting ni, cadangan aku, kalau ada rezeki lebih, pergilaaa... I mean buat umrah dulu, sambil2 kumpul2 duit nak tunaikan haji... get the feeling org kata, be familiarize with both places, then pastu terus buat haji.. dah buat yg wajib, pastu boleh ulang2 lagi, Insya Allah...

aku jugak happy sbb apa yg aku nak cuba buat sepanjang umrah ni berjaya aku buat, which is:

1. Cium Hajarul Aswad (2x)

2. Solat di Hijir Ismail (banyak x)

3. Khatam Quran (sekali)

4. Solat di Raudhah (few times gak)

Sekian...

p/s: saya sekadar berkongsi pengalaman, bukan niat menunjuk...

background: masjid nabawi... cantik!

suamiku sedang bersolat dalam gua hira'

ke ladang unta beli susu unta, tapi minum sikit jek... tak berani :)

Alhamdulillah, sampai jugak aku ke sini. Amin...

time ni kat Jeddah, depan laut Merah... nak balik ke Malaysia, makan dulu!

Lagi Satu Selamat

2010-03-19T14:48:00.000+08:00

Salam...

adik iparku pon dah selamat beranak.. lupa nak update...

anak dia diberanakkan semalam, 18.03.2010... time2 malam jugak...

congrats, Ija & Im...

nanti I'll post the pic... baby tak balik umah lagi!

Selamat... Selamat

2010-03-11T12:21:00.003+08:00

Salam...

Malam tadi, aku dah empuk2 kan bantal, ready2 nak layan Glee... (aku mmg semangat skarang kalau Wed nite ni)...

suami dan anak pon sampai rumah.. (aku balik straight dari ofis smalam, tak tunggu pon suamiku itu pasal dia kata dia nak balik lambat... and aku mintak dia amik terus anak kami yg sorang tu, dah dia yg ada keta...)

sekali sambil berpusing2, ngadap tv... nyanyi2 apa yg keluar kat tv tu... tup- tup dapat panggilan telefon, dari adik iparku...

wah... abg iparku sudah dapat anak lagi sorang... isterinya sudah meletup!

Alhamdulillah... another girl in Pok Mak's family!

so kami dgn langkah yg berat (berat bukan apa, mata sebenarnya dah kuyu2... tp tetap excited nak tgk baby baru)... pegi laa ke rumah sakit...

so nampaklaaa baby baru yg comel itu... (baby mana pon yg tak comel, dak?)

so bertambahlah sorang lagi yg akan memanggil I Mommy Roz! haaa, comel betul budak2 tu kalau dah pandai cakap panggil I Mommy Roz yg Comel...

lagi satu... bff aku punya birthday pon smalam gak...

Happy birthday, Chah... Semoga berjaya memantapkan diri ke tahap paling maksimum di usia skarang dan akan datang, Insya Allah...

aku sayang kamu, yaaaa!

muuuaahhhhhssss!

What Happened in Phuket...

2010-03-08T16:06:00.002+08:00

Salam...

This year's staff day (of current dept) was the last one for me since I'll move to a new dept next week (wef 15 March 2010)... this year's was in Phuket, Thailand...
I visited Phuket 2 years ago with MAM and AZA, but this year it was sure a crazy one... a few incidents happened...

Among others, a 'shemale' showed me and my friend, Af her 'I-sudah-potong' part... nope, not to us, but she showed her friend and we were there accidently, wrong place at the wrong time... talk about the shock of our lives! she was kinda excited, just lifted up her sundress, with no seluar kecik inside... Imagine that!!! We were stunned, and looked at each other and laughed hysterically... gila! Ini macam pon ada!

dunia... dunia...!

Loose End...

2010-03-01T10:13:00.002+08:00

Salam...

Semalam lagi teruk... harini dah ok sikit...
I should have gone to the clinic and get the MC...
tp malas sebenarnya, Friday ni nak cuti lagi...

hmmmm...

please be ok, both of you...

On Mak's Birthday & Elation

2010-02-25T11:33:00.003+08:00

Salam...

This has past its deadline, I know... But things at the office has been stricting the freedom to blog, tell stories etc... but I'll just blog!

On Feb 14th, we celebrated mak's birthday at the restaurant (a surprise one)... I was in- charged of the deco and the invitations... As the pix tells, I managed to coerced lelaki2 itu to do the decorations... I loved the feelings... having total control of the place and watched mereka itu membuat kerja perempuan... hahahah...

The invitees were all my relatives and some of mak's friends... overall it was successful... mak was home- alone the whole day, (she told my nenek she was crying teringatkan my late dad and the children's whereabouts--- we were bz at the restaurant decorating) and the next thing, my brother Z*** was in- charged to divert her attention of coming to the restaurant to begin work...

nampak kan I berkuasa, when I was only taking pix...

guests were anxious waiting for mak

Tadaaaa... Surprise!!!!!!

Alhamdulillah... happy birthday, mak! I love you to bits! Thanks for all the things that you've sacrificed to make me of what I am today... We have our disagreements sometimes (yup, sampai skarang... bila laa nak berubah ni roz!) but that never changed anything, my love towards you...

Semoga Allah memberi keberkatan yg berlipat ganda pada mak, Insya Allah...

On another note, I am so *boing*boing* on the clouds today... Finally, I have heard the good news myself, with supporting evidence from the rightful party (this one refers to my prev entry)... yeay! Alhamdulillah... I am over- excited, looking forward to it... isk, sedih pon ada gak...

Here's the proof...

Thanks Ya Allah... may this new path is going to be one smooth sailing adventure and happier... amin...

Kes Blur

2010-02-24T15:59:00.001+08:00

Salam...

now someone's congratulating me... hmmm, apa kes?
the other someone dah agree... hmmm, lagi tak paham...

later!

Yes or No? You Tell Me...

2010-02-08T13:49:00.002+08:00

Salam...

Dah nak hampir sebulan dah aku attend *benda*tu... by right I have gotten the result by now... Tapi kenapakah takde sampai sekarang? Yang tak bestnya, semua org (yg ada cable dalam laa) seems to know the result ahead from me, yang aku sendiri pon tak tau dari pihak yg berkenaan... So, camana nak react? suka? tak suka?

*still kena disclose lagi kejadian yg benar2 berlaku, utk mengelakkan salah faham... sorry ye...

Kegiatan Weekend Tuari

2010-01-25T12:05:00.004+08:00

Salam...

dah lama saya tak update benda2 yg saya buat... saya mengaku saya banyak 'tersangkut' dgn kerja- kerja di ofis ~~yg taknak saya buat~~...
tapi apakan daya, dari situ punca rezeki saya, jadik saya kena buat muka gembira :)
Astaghfirullah... (saya nak ikhlas bekerja)...

jadi sbg langkah permulaan, saya start dgn hari sabtu tu saya buat apa...
pagi2 bangun, siap2kan anak ~~dan bapak si anak~~, kami ke TTDI, AZA join ALIMKids Playgroup... ni second class dia, Alhamdulillah... dia dah become more participative dari first class tu, yg asik dok clinging kat mak dia... (time tu aku lagi banyak joget dan nyanyi daripada dia... toksah la kan kasik 'can' kat aku... I sure grab punya... hahhaha)...

yg ni dia dah nak joget sikit2.. nyanyi pon dah kuat2.. dan boleh nak menjawab soalan2 teacher dia.. Alhamdulillah, mommy's proud of you, AZA sayangku!

pastu kami ke kenduri kawin kawan MAM... time tu mmg dah lapar laa kan... so walaupon saya mmg kurang berminat dgn makanan kenduri kawin, bila dah nampak makanan, saya lupa apa yg saya suka, dan apa yg saya tak suka... ye, prinsip hidup saya boleh lari bila dalam keadaan terdesak! ekekeke... *hope not!*

pastu ptg2 sikit (setelah balik rumah dan lepak2), kami ke tasik titiwangsa... berpiknik bersama rakan2.. saya ada amik gambar, tapi sbb tak bwk memory card hari ni ke ofis, maka proses mengupload gambar harus dilupakan! lenkali jek eh?
lepak di tepi tasik dgn angin sepoi2 bahasa, pastu ada ayam golek + buah2 + air berperisa, mmg sedap sekali.. tp sayang, sekejap sangat melepet di situ.. kami sampai dah pkl 6.30pm, nak carik parking keta lagi... tau2 dah nak maghrib betul2 bila dah abis makan ayam golek tu.. takpe laa, lenkali kita buat lagi eh?

pastu semlm, saya dan suami menghadiri kursus umrah... Insya Allah, kami akan ke sana bulan 3 ni, dan saya sangat2 teruja! penceramah semlm ialah Dato Ust Hj. Daud Che Ngah... sangat bersemangat saya nak pegi lps dengar ayat2 dorongan daripada dia.. (sama kuat semangat saya nak kawin dgn MAM masa pegi kursus kawin dulu, tu pon dia yg jadik salah sorang penceramah.. :)

hari ni saya datang ofis macam biasa... adoyai, SEMANGAT... kentallah wahai dikau!

Innalillah...

2010-01-21T15:28:00.003+08:00

Salam...

My grandma (mom's side) lost her younger sister on Tuesday nite...
I rushed back with my mom and brothers back to mom's hometown in Malacca the next morning...
My husband couldn't join as he was having a presentation on the same morning...

I think... I am more saddened by the fact that my grandma lost her sister... they were close, they hung- out together (tak kemana pon, depan2 rumah masing2 jek, they live like 100m apart jek pon)... and my grandma is the bestest sister that anyone could have!

Imagine this, sometimes my mom and her siblings have some issues with their aunty (arwah)... so they told my grandma this and that... and my grandma would protect her sister and told her daughters/ sons to just forget about those things... so ended up my mom, aunties and uncles were like "apakah? sapa yg salah ni?" and my mom being among the eldest would talk to my grandma personally and said "cannot laa protect her like that, obviously she's wrong.. bla.. bla.. bla" and my grandma would just say, "Ye laaa, korang ada sesama korang, Aye (she use this to represent herself) ada sapa? Adik Aye ni sorang jek laaa... Sapa lagi nak jaga, kalau bukan Aye yg jaga?" My mom would just kept quiet everytime my grandma use this statement... :)

When I heard about her sister's passing, my mind was locked on my grandma... She must be devastated... and I love my grandma dearly... even when I saw her yesterday, I was 'this close' to cry...

Nenek, jangan sedih2 ok? Insya Allah nenek Lang ditempatkan bersama2 org2 beriman..., kita doakan yg terbaik utk dia... I love you, nenek!

Roz Remembers...

2009-12-31T10:48:00.006+08:00

Salam...

I still remember very vividly on how I started my new chapter of life 7 years ago (1 Jan 2003)... I was anxious, elated and looking forward the moment I'd be called Mrs. Azlan...

Being married of course change your life 270 degrees (another 90 will still be the same for some ppl like me :) I learn new skills esp the one in the kitchen dept (my mom is a good cook, ok... can you blame me?), share bed with a guy (psst, being the only daughter I am) and few thousand things that I have to give and take with this particular person... Yeah, there were moments we couldn't stand each other because of some silly disagreements, but it was merely looking things from different perspectives...

I remembered my wedding preparations... Gosh! most people dread doing those things, from wedding dress, to catering, then the decos, the gifts (hantaran).. yada, yada, yada...

I was lucky (was I?) as I was thousands kilometers away from home, and all were done thru numerous phone calls, emails to approve invitation card's designs, and selecting gifts from Ebay... I think I've spent a lot of my then-scholarship money on phone cards and payphone... Urrghh, such a waste.

My then husband-to-be , my BFFs, my parents, siblings helped a lot! When I said a lot, yup.. without them, I would just come back home and got married in one of the masjids, and that's it!

Instead, I came back, did some fittings on my wedding dress (I encountered some chaotic moments, too) and voila! I was ready to get married with all the preps were smoothly planned by them... nice isn't it? So to all who have helped me, my gratitude is boundless. You've made my day!

The first 2 years of our marriage was somewhere across the ocean, away from the family, away from the friends that I could easily turn to if I have issues with my husband. Come to think of it, it was actually the best thing happened to us... We don't let other people meddle in our lives, we learn accepting each others' flaws, idiosyncracies and there were times we faced financial lackings, we never gave in, didn't call both parents to seek help. We just let things went easy... Alhamdulillah, that was precious...

We live to learn, and I learn how to be the best chef of the house (like we have more than 2 people staying with us!) But yeah, I wasn't ashamed to parade my food when there were gatherings, islamic classes or organizing lunch/ dinner at our place... I salute myself for that, hehehe...

So while I look back at those 7 years of happy moments and obstacles, I'd like to look forward for another 7 years and beyond with my wonderful, loved one... Azlan Mohammad, Insya Allah.

B, Happy 7th anniversary... I love you to zillions!

7 years and counting... aminnn!

Happy Birthday, B

2009-12-22T11:53:00.004+08:00

Salam...

It was my dearest husband's birthday last Sunday...
He's 33 now, Alhamdulillah... Allah has granted good health, wealth and personality to this admirable man of mine... Syukur! Syukur!

B, I love you for what you are, thanks for having me in your life, adjusting yours just to fit mine... I may be stubborn, selfish and bad- mannered (ada ke?) but that was all purposely done to catch your attention... I liked it when you paid attention to me and only me, and I will always do...

I love you to the fullest... May our lives be filled with all the good things and showered with barakah... amin...

pssst: hadiah belum beli lagi laa.. tak tau nak beli apa :)

Alhamdulillah

2009-12-21T11:59:00.003+08:00

Salam...

salah satu kejayaan saya di tahun baru ini adalah 'membooking'...
saya dah setuju dgn mmebuat keputusan utk ke sana hari Khamis yg lepas...
Insya Allah semuanya berjalan lancar...

oh ya... lagi satu 'alat mainan' saya dah dapat... Alhamdulillah...
Insya Allah boleh beli lagi... :)

Hammam & Gommage Spa

2009-12-21T10:27:00.001+08:00

Salam...

Saya baru balik dari pegi bersantai... di spa... hmm, seronok!
It's a Morroccon type of spa, yg mana saya dan kawan ~~segossip~~ sepejabat saya dah mcm nenong2 di ofis, sebenarnya on cloud 9 sbb gaji masuk harini *ngeeee*...

jadi, terus laa saya apply cuti separuh hari, dan boss approve! mak aihh, gila best! apa lagi, bergegas kami ke Bangsar Village, sbb kat situ laa pot spanya! Never been there, but it was highly recommended by a friend yg dah pernah pegi ke sana (tapi saya yg recommend dia pegi sana... aikkk? cita zig- zag betul)... tapi mmg camtu laa cerita dia pon...

so once there, kami disuruh tukar baju, pakai all those disposable thingies, and robe...
then, di suruh masuk satu bilik oleh 2 mak arabs ni... one to handle me, another one to handle my friend.. then, she asked me to take off my robe... yikes! malunya!!! the room is actually a bilik mandi... but hi grade punya bilik mandi laaa, berlantaikan papan yg cun, dan ada tiling benches...
and dia suruh duduk atas bench belah sini, my friend bench belah sana... and they bathed us! double yikesssss!!! lagi malu besar... sbb they really bathed you, mcm mak mandikan anak!!! OMG, seriously malu hokey!!! u just sat there, and tunggu jek apa instructions dia... angkat tangan, nak basuh rambut, tutup mata... things like that.. haishhh...

then, bermula laaa era scrub... mak aih.. dia pakai sarung tangan yg mcm kertas pasir, perit tak ingat! but the result was good, in the sense you punya kulit after that mcm baby's bottom, bak kata org putih... but of course laa, the price you pay was seeing all the dead's skin yg bertaburan di atas tpt scrub itu... DAKI bak kata org melayu... sampailaa kawan I tu tak percaya punya laa banyak hasilnya, sbb secara logiknya dia kata hari2 dia scrub masa mandi pakai loofah, takkan masih banyak lagi daki? hahahhaa... funny, man!

then, acara massage plak.. bukan mak arab ni buat, some Pinoys maybe, sbb I tried to speak Malay with them, but no response.. I tried English, and their English sounded pelik sikit.. maybe laa kot.. aku pon takleh nak track bangsa apa dorang ni... but the massage was quite dissapointing, tak berapa kuat... bila mintak dikuatkan pon, waktu dekat2 nak abis...
tak kuat2 dorang pon, kami punya dengkuran masa dimassage tu, agak kuat laa jugak.. kah kah kah...

so for this experience, I would rate the place as 3/5... sbb massage tu pada aku yg penting... dimandikan tu mcm takde pasni pon takpe, tak boleh aku imagine aku kena dimandikan lagi oleh strangers... dia punya deco mmg cun laa kan, ye laa, Moroccan- themed... pastu the package is a bit pricey, since org dia pon imported nun jauh dari padang pasir, lagi satu disebabkan dia duk kat tpt posh tu kan... alaa Bangsar... so harga dia nun atas sikit dari yg biasa....

Pegi laa kalau korang nak rasa something new... selamat dimandikan! (yikes...! lain macam plak bunyinya)...

tempat berehat, in between sessions sambil minum teh & baklava sedap

kawan saya sedang menayang baklavanya... :)

Hafazan is Easy (HIE)

2009-12-16T12:12:00.003+08:00

Salam...

Right after work yesterday, my hubby and I rushed to Coaching Zone, in Seri Kembangan (right after work tu takde laa, lps maghrib gak aku bertolak, redah hujan, halilintar, dan plg penting kat KL ialah redah ~~banjir~~ jem!)

We attended a session called Hafazan Is Easy, a method used by an ustaz in a tahfiz school in Besut, T'ganu (Ustaz ni nama dia Ust. Wan Zikri, muka mcm Mawi, serious tak tipu, but with kopiah, and a funny guy...) This session was organized by Coach Sha, a homeschool teacher cum mother to her 4 kids, who is also running this Coaching Zone company... she basically organize English classes for kids, parents and anybody who loves to learn English in fun ways...

You can view Coach Sha's website @ http://mycoachingzone.net/ or her blog @http://coachsha.wordpress.com/ .

Basically, this session introduce you ways of memorizing Quran, how one's can use their fullest brain capacity and capability to memorize the holy Quran... Come to think of it, everyone can and it is never too late... sebab Ustaz Zikry cakap, if you memorize an ayat a day, you'll memorize the whole book in 18 years! How amazing is that? So katalaa skarang aku 32, campur lagi 18 tahun? 50? ehh ok sangat laa tu kan kalau jadik hafizah masa umur cenggitu... Insya Allah...

hmmm... boleh ke? sometimes my brain pon cam ada mode idle2 dia gitu... :) Anyhow, when there's a will, there's a way, aight?

Doakan Ibu Mertuaku

2009-12-09T09:59:00.004+08:00

Salam...

My MIL has been hospitalized for more than a week now... Demam, baik.. demam balik, baik balik (camtu jek laa hari2)... The dr. couldnt really tell what's wrong with her, except that she has viral infection due to diabetes... now she's only been prescribed with paracetamol and some antibiotics for the infection... (takkan ni jek, duduk lama2... pastu bayar mahal2...)

other than that, she's healthy (bila tak demam laa kan)... but knowing her, she's the type yg tak boleh duduk diam... and you know lah kan, kalau dah duduk kat hospital lama2, dari tak berapa sakit pon boleh jadik sakit... because of the environment! tu pon nasib baik that hospital tu ada kedai2 keliling dia, kadang2 tu kitorang seludup gak dia pegi makan2, or more to ambik2 angin... let her breathe udara luar... yg lagi tak menyesakkan dari udara dalam hospital...

I can see my MIL's spirit pon dah gradually turun... muka dah makin monyok tiap2 hari... kesian jugak kat dia.. hai laa dr... cepat2 laa kasik mak aku ni keluar... kesian laaa...

Nak Balik Raya...

2009-11-26T21:23:00.004+08:00

Salam...

laa ni tgh relax2 kat rumah in- laws aku, sbb aku tgh tunggu time jek nak cabut balik kg...
kami sekeluarga (3 org jek pon) nak balik melaka, nak raya ngan nenek aku...
masalahnya, si suami balik2 ofis jek dah cakap dalam radio asik membebel pasal jammed di sana sini... esp semua exit2 yg keluar KL... haishhh... abis bila nak balik...?

aku pon bukan apa, lagi cepat sampai rumah nenek aku, lagi best kan? sure dekat dapur rumah nenek aku tu tgh hiruk- pikuk nenek, mak, makcik, pakcik aku, cousins tgh memasak... agaknya laa.. tu pon kalau semua balik..

lagi satu... aku nak cop port yg balik punya utk aku landing mlm ni... kalau aku lambat, mmg placing tak baik punya laa kan... sure jauh dari kipas... pastu bantal2 semua dah kena songlap ngan cousin2... aku ni plg penting kena ada 2 bantal... satu kat kepala, satu kat kaki kena kepit...
kalau tak, susah mau lelap...

ni dah kata nak tunggu agak2 traffic nak reda... abis pkl berapa mau sampe?

pada kawan2... selamat hari raya Aidil Adha... selamat makan daging korban banyak2... semoga ibadah korban diterima dan diredhai.. Insya Allah...

Kenapa eh?

2009-11-17T09:39:00.002+08:00

Salam...

Lately anak aku suka menangis2 bila aku nak pegi kerja...
jenis yg meraung2 punya... aku pon tak paham...
all this while, kalau aku cakap nak pegi keja jek, dia cam... "ok, mommy... mommy want to go to work? OK boleh..."

tup... tup... dia sudah tukar "Jangan laa mommy, tak boleh pegi work..." pastu makin lama makin kuat desible dia.. haishhh... meruntun2 laa perasaan aku, esp bila aku dah masuk kereta, dan dia makin kuat teriak...

kenapa eh? takkan dah 2.5 tahun pon ada lagi that separation anxiety tu? hmmm, takde laa rimas, tapi kadang2 tu kesian... rasa nak call boss aku straight cakap "I EL laa harini, boss... anak I tak kasik pegi keja?" Boleh????

Moving forward...

2009-11-12T18:37:00.004+08:00

Salam...

A short & simple question that I always ask myself...

How much money do I need to retire?

Most financial consultants that approached me (unit trust or insurance agent) said, "you will never know... but a million and above should be sufficient to sustain your retirement period"...

Do you agree with this?

Skarang dah mmg banyak pakai duit, dah tua lagi banyak pakai duit????

haisshhh takutttttt....!

Sedih lagi...

2009-11-05T16:54:00.002+08:00

Salam...

Innalillah...
Allah knows best!

My nenek sedara passed away this morning, at 70... she was diagnosed with cancer (I think it was kidney, not so sure) a few days back...

Semoga Wan Enon ditempatkan di kalangan orang yg beriman, Insya Allah...

Patutlaaa syahdu :(

2009-11-04T16:16:00.005+08:00

Salam...

hmmm, patut laa smalam rasa lain macam...

dalam lrt rasa sedih, sampai kat station tpt turun sedih lagi...
naik cab dari train station ke rumah, pon sedih lagi...
hari ni plak cam mendung2 rupa aku...

rupa2nya... lepas dikira2 balik... harini genap arwah bapak pegi pada-Nya 100 hari...

haishhh... memang laa syahdu :(

Premium Beautiful

2009-10-31T09:00:00.000+08:00

**Sticky Mode**

Salam...

I am currently promoting this in hand... I am the user myself and have seen some improvements after a couple months of using it... Call me (016.261.6295) if you want yourself transformed, Insya Allah... Click image for better view...

Online Contest ~ Senyuman Ceria Si Comel

2009-10-27T17:36:00.008+08:00

Salam...

My first time to enter blog contest... and of course, it involves my son!
(mommy's not exploiting you, honey... just wanna let people to know you, that's all! *bad grin*)...

This contest is organized by http://smileykidz.blogspot.com/. So, for those who thinks their kids has the most 'ceria' smile (which mother doesn't?), lets join the contest together. After all, it's not about the prizes jek, it's about you finding those thousands of pix of your kids and pick the best one to be submitted... hehhehehe... (aku pon naik juling dah ni)... then you reminisce the those times of the pix taken... owh rindunya zaman itu...

My golden son: Adam Zane Azlan bin Mohd Azlan.
DOB: 10 April 2007

pix taken here when he was 10-mo, 14-mo and 23-mo, respectively... Enjoy!

For T&C of the contest, please click this... or you can click the banner on the left- hand side.

Good luck, peeps!

p/s: Adam, kalau kita menang, kfc' treat on mommy, ok? (nasib baik dia suka kfc, kalau lagi gedevance??? haishhhhh....)

Sukar digambarkan...

2009-10-27T17:15:00.003+08:00

Salam...

pernah rasa tak satu perasaan yg teramat BENGANG tapi tak boleh nak dilepaskan?
walaupon pada suami sendiri? (bukan marah kat dia pon)...

aku tgh dalam keadaan begitu skarang...
dalam keadaan yg sangat haru- biru yg pada aku, sapa2 pon aku taknak cakap/ jumpa?
tapi tak boleh! sebab dah kalau macam tu nak kena duduk gua laa pulak kan?

sebenarnya perasaan aku ni punca dia satu je... aku memang dah sampai tahap dengan KERJA aku skarang... sebabnya kami semua ni hanya mangsa keadaan!
dan biasalah, dah kalau dekat2 nak akhir tahun ni, apa lagi... ASSESSMENT lah!

dah kalau assessment di buat ke atas aku di atas kerja yang aku baru pertama kali buat (masa belajar pon tak pernah buat), dan yang aku rasa aku tak suka nak buat.... adakah dia akan menjadi BAIK, SEDERHANA atau TIDAK BAIK?

aku rasa aku duduk2 dalam kelompok TIDAK BAIK, walaupon ramai kawan2 aku cakap aku dalam kelompok SEDERHANA...

hmmm, aku hanya perlu tunggu dan lihat... apa2 pon, aku sendiri yang tahu tahap aku kat mana kan? tapi biasa laa.. dah kalau banyak orang kat atas tu sudah ramai mencium 'bo****'nya, adakah aku akan selamat?

tawakal ajelah!

Something Happen for a Reason

2009-10-22T15:07:00.003+08:00

Salam...

Alhamdulillah... a close friend of mine has taken a major step in fulfilling her life.
A life- changing experience indeed!

She'll be having a SON soon, this November! Insya Allah...

For those who's pregnant, you may think this is just another phase that you'll go thru (Insya Allah), so what's so big deal about it?

But for a lady who's never been married, living in KL alone (parents staying outside of the city).. I think this is so challenging but yet something to look forward to, right babe? You know you have all the responsibilities in the world to give everything, to protect him for any danger or whatnot... (I can imagine you'll soon sound like me, like mak2 one!) hehehhehe

Whatever it is, I'll pray that you'll be the best mother to the child, provide him with love, guidance and toys (yeay, frequent visits to Toys 'R' Us together after this)... I am just a call away if you need help...

ooohhh even I can't wait to see her baby.. I've always liked babies... they are always sooo to look at, regardless of their backgrounds...

I want another one, pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..........

Why is it?

2009-10-19T15:54:00.002+08:00

Salam...

not good... not good... not good...
that's all I can say...

Nurkasih

2009-10-09T13:58:00.002+08:00

Salam...

uishhh, not embarass to admit that I'm one of their groupie... syahdu! syahdu!
and tonite episode 19 will be aired...
arrgghhh! can't wait... I'll be glued the whole hour...

*sebarang surat menyurat/ phone tidak akan dilayan dari 9pm-10pm...

si angau menulis,

Dah Lama Dah....

2009-09-29T15:09:00.002+08:00

Salam...

Sorry, lama dah tak update...
saya takde laa beraya sakan, ala kadar sahaja...
tapi kemalasan saya seperti menonjolkan saya sangat2 teruja menyambut Aidilfitri...
biasa saja... takde yg lebih, takde yg kurang...

seminggu saya cuti raya... memang seronok... walaupon tak banyak berjalan raya, tapi kalau dah bercuti dari bertugas, mmg tiada yg lebih seronok dari itu...
semalam pon saya hampir2 nak menangis nak bangun dari katil, tapi kata2 perangsang dari suami buat saya berubah fikiran (terangsang ke?)... lebih kepada ucapan2 pedas jek!
sekali rasa anak saya badan cam panas2... bawak dulu ke klinik, pastu hantar pi rumah ibu mertuaku...

harini ofis buat open house... hmmm, ada plak PM datang... dapat laa saya bersalam ngan tangan dia yg lagi lembut dari mana2 calon gadis Melayu... perghh! moisturizer apakah yg dipakai? saya sudah banyak bertukar brand, tapi kadar poros saya masih tinggi juga... takpe laa, rezeki dia...
rezeki saya dapat belai suami saya... (tiada kena mengena ini cerita)... :)

ok... skarang saya sedang tunggu suami saya sampai... lepas tu saya nak layan dia makan pulak... sebab hari ni open house, saya tiada mood nak kerja...

oohh ok... dah sampai! tata...

Kemaafan Dipinta

2009-09-17T09:55:00.005+08:00

Salam...

Tulat kita raya...

Esok aku nak balik kampung Melaka kejap... (jumpa nenek nak berbuka/ bersahur dgn dia, pastu balik KL balik, beraya di sini)..

Hari ni last day kerja...

Macam2 perasaan sekarang, bercampur- baur... suka, takde mood, teruja, sedih... semua ada...

Tahun ni turn suami... jadi beraya di KL laa kami... (tak pernah terpikir akan beraya di KL masa kecik2 dulu... sbb aku mmg terkenal di kalangan kawan2 aku, jenis yg kalau balik beraya, tak reti2 3-4 hari... mau seminggu cuti tu aku abiskan kat kampung... apa ada kat KL kalau beraya?)

tiba2 teringat kenangan masa kecik2 dulu bila balik beraya ke kampung terutama ke Alor Setar... perjalanan selalunya memakan masa lebih dari 8 jam, sbb arwah bapak tak bawah laju, dan kalau mlm, banyak berhenti makan2... no pressure katanya... tu tak masuk lagi kes2 yg tersadai tgh jalan sbb abis minyak! yaaa, kami sekeluarga mmg selalu tersadai sbb arwah bapak selalu rasa boleh sampai ke next stesen minyak walaupon masa tu lampu dia dah kelip2... hhehehe, bila terkenang balik, rasa kelakar... sbb time tu, mak aku akan ngomel2 cakap bapak aku over confident (masa ni bapak aku dah tumpang mana2 penunggang motosikal mintak dibawakan ke stesen terdekat nak beli minyak), dan kami adik beradik keluh kesah dalam kereta... panas lah! lapar lah! nak pegi toilet lah! lagi memanaskan perasaan mak aku... :)

sekarang kenangan tu tak mungkin berulang... kami pon dah lama tak balik AS, asyik ke Melaka saja... dekat, kalau paling lama pon sebab jem... 3 ke 4 jam mungkin... tapi tahun ni, mak taknak balik kampung dulu... pagi2 raya, mak nak bersama arwah bapak, menziarahi kubur arwah...

Raya kami dah tak seperti dulu... semuanya bermula di Kuala Lumpur sekarang...

Untuk semua kawan2... Selamat Hari Raya... maaf zahir dan batin... semoga persahabatan kita semakin erat... tidak kira di dunia realiti atau maya sekalipun... pada yang berkesempatan, datang laa rumah... sentiasa terbuka pada yg sudi...

Mak pasti merindui saat ini, dan aku juga... Ya Allah, hamba-Mu ini redha dengan segala ketentuan-Mu... kuatkan dan yakinilah imanku ini... aminnnn...

and family -xoxo-

Iftar with the Besties

2009-09-08T15:35:00.004+08:00

Salam...

It was chaotic last Sunday, we had potluck session for Iftar at my place...
with all the ladies dominating, what could the guys/ husbands say about it? Layan jek laaaa...

Thanks for the food... yours truly ini just prepared nasik ~~lembik~~ putih yg sedap, ~~my signature~~ fruit punch and a place to chill (chill sangat laa kan rumah aku tu)...
Noriz for the first time ever, prepared masak lemak daging salai... yummy! and Noriz, hope this won't be the last time... lepas ni ada lagi... :)

Ratna, your sambal ikan bilis was a bless... my metabolism rate went fast that time, nak lagi.. nak lagi.. dan lagi...

Azmah and your sup daging (or tulang?) Siam... serious yummylicious! feels like I ordered one from an authentic Thai restaurant...

Liza, yes... your chicken was grilled perfectly ~~by Tesco~~... hehehe.. and your KFC mmg finger lickin' good... (takpe, you were sick... next time masak signature dish kau ok?)

and the kids... were adorable as always... and further thanks to Yani and her friend for becoming our distinguished guests... hehehehhe..

Harus pose sebelum azan...

then solat... sempat tgk camera lagi...

now it's makan time... F.A.M.I.S.H.E.D!

Double birthday celebration for me and Noriz...

Love you, babes! Muuaahhhhhhsss...

Saya nak Pandai

2009-09-07T13:13:00.003+08:00

Salam...

OK, saya kena pegi kelas... saya nak pandai...
Cikgu Hanis, terimalah buah cempedak yg baru ini, boleh?

My Heartfelt Gratitude...

2009-09-02T12:50:00.004+08:00

Salam...

B, thanks for the dinner last nite.. it was wonderful.. I loved it! I loved the place, the food, and of course.. the company, you and AZA! Although I am not fond of candle- lit dinner (you know we cant tolerate low brightness during our makan time), we couldn't help it... we tried requesting for a table lamp like some tables, but the guy said our plug point is out, so none for us... ergo the candle.... luckily our table moved from one lampu to another...

Again, I just wanna tell you that you really make my life at ease... u know lotsa things happened recently, from your father-in-law passing, to unsuccessful attempts of 'that'... You make me regain my stance.. and for that, my gratitude is boundless...

Thanks B for celebrating my 32nd birthday... I love you so much!

I love you both to infinity!

Kiciwa

2009-08-28T17:16:00.002+08:00

Salam...

dah lama tak update... bukan malas... tapi takde mood...
selalu ada rasa nak tulis, tapi lepas tu terbantut...
tgh musim kiciwa sikit ni...

sabar ye, tak bulat takkan datang bergolek, yang pipih takkan datang melayang... Insya Allah...

Hadiah Buat Mak

2009-08-19T12:04:00.003+08:00

Salam...

I bought my mom a new watch yesterday... I like it of course, it has sapphire glass, mother of pearl face and the numbers are diamond- like crystals... Personally I wont wear it cause it has smaller face that what I have now (I kan kurang kefimininannya)... but I know it suits my mom well...

Plus, 'twas on sale! Yup, sale! Not that I'm being cheap... but you know you cant resist that and mak was the first person that crossed my mind... even suamiku pon saya tidak membelikannya...

tapi I bought for him a nice pen... which he said to me this morning when I gave him that, "Thank you, Thank you... I love you..." I pitied him cause he never had a proper pen to sign documents... paling canggih pon dia ada yg gel pen berdakwat basah... tapi cap biasa jek laa, yg budak college pon can afford to buy sekali sedozen... reason being: dia kata beli mahal2 kang cepat hilang... so my dear, pls dont lose this S******* pen ye? jaga laa elok2 seperti anda menjaga saya...

back to mak's story, I gave it to her last nite... and said, "Nah mak, ni jam untuk raya, tapi pakai masa raya tau, bukan sekarang". And I can see her face lights up... best kan? ye laa walaupon jam tu bukan riban2 punya... but at least I can make her happy even for a short time after my bapak's passing... (alamak, tiba2 ter'emo')...

and today... I bought her a new pair of crocs... wah... sangat berbelanja sakan aku! takpe, untuk mak... sekali sekala...

Suffocated

2009-08-18T10:12:00.002+08:00

Salam...

Now I put on face mask at the office, and it's like part of my daily dress code... Luckily it comes in 2 choices of colors only, white or green... if not, I'll definitely find other colors to match with my office attires :)

I feel suffocated... and light- headed sometimes... lack of oxygen, maybe? But I have to put it on, some of my collegues are confirmed positive with Influenza A... so that means, those little culprits are actually surrounding me... scary isn't it?

Ya Allah, selamatkanlah hamba Mu ini, dan ahli keluarganya, serta rakan2nya... amin...

IUI Procedures

2009-08-13T15:52:00.003+08:00

Salam...

agak ramai org bertanya how does this procedure works... so seperti biasa, adalah ~~malas~~ penat utk saya menulis banyak kali , lagipon blog ini utk tatapan umum jua, I just penned everything here...

specifically this was done at LPPKN (Lembaga Penduduk something- something):

1st day of period: Called the clinic to set an appointment with the Dr. (dalam kejadian ini, aku 'kena' jumaat, so jumpa Senin)...

Appt Day: Consultation session with Dr. K. Dia kira itu, ini, yada yada... last2 dia prescribed Clomid (yg kena makan selama 5 days in a row) and Pregnol injection (3x, every other nite)... time ni bill around RM400.00. Then kena datang balik for ultrasound nak tgk the eggs.

2nd. Appt. Day: Dr. scanned me and said telur tak berapa matang, had to inject lagi sekali with Pregnol... then 2 days after that, I have to do another injection to release the eggs... then have to come for IUI procedure the next weeknya tu... Bill around RM300++ (ini dah termasuk tablets prescribed to kuatkan my rahim yg perlu dimakan a week after that IUI treatment)

IUI Day: Datang klinik pagi2 buta (dalam 7.30am) then tunggu turn buat IUI... Kos RM350.00
lepas tu, kita doa sama2, dan tawakkal pada Allah... it's all in His hands... Insya Allah...

kesimpulannya: ready2 jek laa dalam RM1500 for this whole thing... dan setakat yg I tau, it's more costly if you do it outside of LPPKN... ye laa, sbb LPPKN ni govt subsidized sikit... tapi tu laa, sbb dia cheaper than biasa2 ni, Q dia kadang2 boleh membuatkan blood go upstairs, tu tak masuk lagi Dr takde pegi course laa, amik cuti laaa, dah kena tunggu next cycle utk set another apptmt (tapi who are we pon nak complain2 sangat kan, bersyukur jek laa)...

juga perhatian pada kawan2 yg banyak makan clomid... tak tau laa kan, tapi I mmg mintak kat Dr. jgn prescribed clomid banyak2 kat I, sbb selepas makan tu, selera makanku mencanak2...
terus stress... :)

Insya Allah... teruskan usaha... and lets keep on doa to Him for He knows what He's doing... all the best!

Free Leave Today

2009-08-12T19:38:00.003+08:00

Salam...

We have to go back and 'dilarang berkerja arahan' by the management (only applicable to my level, 7B)... Hooray! There was this one guy suspected of having H1N1 (he had all the symptoms)... kesian dia...
suka kena balik pon suka gak.. but I was kinda worried if let say the guy is positive with the virus, we are to be home- quarantined for 7 days, and not to have direct contact even with family members! Gila... macam mana nak main2 bergurau senda bersama l\keluarga?

But Alhamdulillah, I just received txt message from my director stated that we are required to come back to work tomorrow... that means that guy is negative.. Insya Allah...

so everybody, lets just be extra cautious... wear face mask ye!

And Ramadhan is Approaching...

2009-08-11T15:11:00.002+08:00

Salam...

Errkk... it'll be less than 2 weeks before Ramadhan comes... and I still have 2 more days to replace my previous 'puasa'...

OK. MUST. PUASA. TOMORROW. NO EXCUSE. SAHUR. MALAM. NI. MAKAN. MAGGI. CUKUP!

then kena do your puasa nazar pulak, roz! haishhh.. tembelina betul!

Second Attempt

2009-08-07T11:20:00.002+08:00

Salam...

Just came back from the clinic... Not an ordinary one, but LPPKN... so I'm set to perform my IUI next week on Monday... pray for me... I think now is the best time for AZA to have baby brother/ sister... Insya Allah...

For those who knew, even AZA was conceived thru this method... aku dan suamiku sudah hampir setahun menerai cara biasa, and I guess takde rezeki lagi... So, last resort we opted for IUI again... (I was diagnosed with lower progesterone, tu yg susah nak ovulate tu... hmmm, adakah hormon jantanku pulak yg tinggi? Tapi aku nak pakai kasut tumit tinggi... mana mungkin! Ntahlah!)

So friends, doakan kawan anda ini mendapat baby baru ye? Laki/ perempuan saya tidak kisah, yg penting HAPPY!!! Thanks!

Cerita lain pulak ----> AZA sometimes ask for his Tokwan.... waaa, mau cakap apa? I told him, Tokwan dah takde, and he asked back, "Kenapa?" I just told him, "Tokwan dah meninggal, tapi Tokwan dah tak sakit dah"... and he just said, "Kenapa, Mommy?"... Aiyoh...
how to tell laaaa... he even asked to go to my parents' house to see Tokwan and nak naik kereta Tokwan... anakku, ibumu ini juga merindui Tokwanmu itu...

Alhamdulillah, without fail... I'll make sure I'll visit kubur my dad at least once a day... Syukur sangat that his kubur dekat dengan jalan, dan tak perlu membuat sebarang pendakian... So itulah kelebihan boleh selalu pergi jenguk, Insya Allah... Tapi mamat yg nak bikin batu nisan + tapak tu kata menda2 tu akan siap seminggu jek (last week lagi dah jumpa dia dah)... sampai laa ni tak siap2 lagi... dah laa 2-3 hari ni hujan... dan nampak mendap tanah tu dah... haishhh...
"bang, deposit dah amik bang, cepat laa sikit... taknak mendap lagi tanah tu..."

Hari Ini

2009-08-05T16:57:00.002+08:00

Salam...

Hari ini aku baru balik ofis... lps cuti seminggu last week, settle2kan hal arwah bapak...
pastu senin sampai tgh hari tadi, pegi course...
ni baru nak update blog yg agak2 hidup segan, mati tak mau ni...

haisshhh... life must go on, Roz!

Al- Fatihah untuk Bapak...

2009-07-31T16:14:00.006+08:00

Salam...

my saddest day, 29 July 2009... The day I lost my father at 8.50pm... due to stroke (haemorrhage intra-cerebral bleed (ICB)...
I wish I could turn back time, and showered him with more love and affection...
but it is of course impossible to happen...

Bapak...
Roz mintak maaf atas semua kesalahan Roz... Roz sayang bapak... Halalkan makan minum Roz, dan semua benda yg pernah Roz buat sampai bapak kecik hati dgn Roz... semua tu adalah tanda Roz sayangkan bapak...
Bapak langsung takde buat salah dgn Roz... tapi Roz tau banyak Roz buat salah... semoga kita akan dipertemukan di hari kemudian, Insya Allah...

Ya Allah, tptkan bapakku di kalangan orang2 yg beriman... Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mengetahui...
Jauhkan laa dia dari segala siksaan kubur dan akhirat... berikanlah dia keselesaan dan ketenangan... Amin Ya Rabbalalamin...

Al- Fatihah...

related: http://rozrazalli.blogspot.com/2009/03/warkah-buat-bapakku.html

Official Result...

2009-07-21T12:06:00.002+08:00

Salam...

ni bukan ulasan perlawanan bola semalam (MU vs MAS)... aku pon taknak ulas team ~~'setan merah'~~ biasa2 tu... sangat tak tersentuh dorang tu kalau ditengok barang sejam dua, gaji jek over 2 sampai ampat ribu pound! Wow! - Husin Lempoyang

This one refers to the result of the job interview that I had last 2 weeks (ke lebey?) I Didn't get it! Sedih tu mmg sedih, but what can you do pon, it's fated... redha jek laa... probably there's more exciting things waiting for me along the way, Insya Allah...

semalam jugak saya telah mendapat tiket concert 1 Wajah M.Nasir secara percuma untuk mengubat hati yg luka... bukan 1 tapi 2... akan ku pergi melepaskan ke'frust'an aku di situ...
OK, signing off... nak pegi beli kain batik lepas satu... Nusantara kan? Feel kena ada...

p/s: Bila laa batu atas kepala ni mau turun? sakit laa dey!

Check- In Hotel Hospital Lagi

2009-07-17T14:25:00.003+08:00

Salam...

I was away for few days, 4 to be exact... anak lelaki kemanjaanku masuk rumah sakit... poor him! He had this 'ketumbit' on his right eye (I tak google laa 'ketumbit' apa in English... anyone knows? Thanks!)...

Hubby brought him to the clinic (ibunya ke ofis, carik rezeki...errkkk! terbalik!) then, the Dr. referred him to the specialist... lps sessi2 tgk2 kesakitan kat belah mana, terus warded! So when it comes to take care of the sick child(ren), harus laaa mak2 yg mengsacrifice cuti tahunan dia utk menjaga anak itu kan? So, I'm now left with 13 days of my annual leave after deducting that "Hari Penjagaan Anak di Hospital" for 3 days... takpe, anak punya pasal!

The best part, ingatkan ketumbit2 biasa... sekali sampai kena minor surgery (ketumbit giant sebenarnya)... I almost changed my mind when I signed the consent form... ye laa, kecik2 dah nak masuk OT... mak dia umur 30 thn baru kena operate2 ni semua.. tu pon sbb nak beranakkan dia...

Alhamdulillah... my son is now recuperating... how? by jumping/ climbing here and there...
get well ok, abang AZA! (dia dah perasan dia abang dah.. cannot call him baby no more!) mentang2 dah masuk jawi, cepat ajek perasan dah besar... iskkk!

hari pertama di hospital... mcm tak sakit... tapi muka Dr. masa mula2 tengok, cam serius... siap berkerut2... haisshhh!

Destination: OT. Mood: OK ajek. Bubbly & excited to see the Dr.

Mood Mak & Bapak: LEMBIK LUTUT!

Time lalok dah abis... Happy jek! Dgn aku2 sekali buat perangai kat sebelah... (gambar takleh tunjuk, nanti tak lalu makan.. ekekek)

p/s: To Dato' Dr. Baljit and nurses of APSH, thanks a lot... for making our stay a memorable one! (walaupon tak manis @ pahit sangat... tapi nak make sure anak aku sihat pon dah syukur...) Semoga mata anakku tak ceme lagi... Love you, AZA!

I AM TAKING THE PLUNGE!

2009-07-13T10:33:00.003+08:00

salam...

Ya Allah, please give me strength and success in pursuing this... I am doing this is for You and for the family's betterment...

Please let me equipped with all the knowledge, the techniques (or tactics) and be okay with rejection(s)... Amin...

p/s: I guess I am really doing this, as firman Allah: "Allah tidak akan sesekali mengubah nasib mereka jika mereka tidak mengubah nasib mereka"...

Benefit: Just In Case

2009-07-09T15:48:00.005+08:00

Salam...

I'm out of compact powder... so thot of getting a new one last Tues, but I ended up buying this... (I'm a sucker for makeups that comes in pallettes, or combination of it... senang nak bawak, takde tertinggal apa2)

actual colors vary than potrayed here... pakai camera phone jek!

L-R: Benetint (bestseller) for lip & cheek, Eyecon (eye cream), California Kissin' (lip shine) & Some Kind-a Gorgeous (foundation faker)...

Overall, I'm lovin' it! although I may say it will only last less than 3 mo for frequent user. Let this be my trial period, and if there's good results (muka aku dipenuhi NUR ke) then I'll buy bigger ones.

p/s: errrkkk! what were grandma's hands doing here? MUST. MOISTURIZE. NOW.

Jom Tengok TV

2009-07-07T17:27:00.003+08:00

Salam...

yup! saya memang over... I'll be on leave tomorrow because tonite I'll glued myself to the tv, 1 am to be exact... nak tgk MJ's funeral... sampai pkl 3 pagi...

and I'm scared I might jump outta bed tomorrow sbb terlajak, adalah lebih baik ku ambil cuti (and approved at 4pm tadi... yahoo! Thanks boss!)

Lamanya??? May 2005

2009-07-03T10:34:00.004+08:00

Salam...

mmg lama... berjinggut org tunggu, sampai aku sendiri tunggu pon dah tumbuh akar... lagi laaa aku tak bergerak, sbb akar ni dah ikat aku...

oleh itu, sbb aku terlampau super rajin... maka aku buat edisi khas kali ni... beli kat majalah wanita pon tak jumpa, apatah lagi kalau carik version omputih... ni kolumpo jek ada, tu pon kedai che roz jek yg jual...

Berikut adalah ringkasan2 apa yg telah berlaku di dalam bulan May... (bulan June punya, tunggu lagi satu edisi khas ok? dia takleh keluar awal, sbb perangai 'super' aku tu laaa :)

Okasi Pertama: Lihat 'anak ikan' kami bermain2...

Ni anak ikan betul punya, sekali bapak-mak-sedara ikan2 semua ada... bukan 'anak ikan' yg dibela oleh datin2... aku bawak anak aku dan kawan aku sekali (aku dukung anak aku jek, kawan aku dia angkat diri dia sendiri) pegi Aquaria... menarik! Berlaku pada 24 May...

Okasi Kedua: Adik ipar aku berlaki (menikah)...

berlaku masa 30 May. Aku incas apa? hmmm, takde laa specific sangat selain hire photographer, buat bilik pengantin sikit2, beli barang2 hantaran, kemas rumah, hire mekap artist utk ahli keluarga, mandur masa reception dan yg paling penting, make sure anak aku tak meragam masa tu... Alhamdulillah! dia sangat memahami maknya... sebaliknya anak buah aku yg buat show... kesiannya ibunya itu...

Okasi Ketiga: Reception dekat De Palma Hotel

Sini takde apa2 yg boleh aku buat sangat pon... semua dah tersedia, tapi penat tetap gila laaa level dia kan? aku agak laa sbb aku pakai kasut yg boleh tahan tinggi heels dia... tu yg terpenat melampau tu! biasa pakai flat.com punya kasut jek, konon nak melawa haritu (ye laa tuan rumah laa katakan... haa hamek kau! sakit2 aku punya achilles... ekekekek)

tu jek laa kot aku rasa yg nak update... ada laa satu lagi occassion iaitu bertandang ke rumah belah pengantin lelaki tu... tapi aku tak bawak camera... sbb malas nak usung, ngan anaknya lagi, beg susu, wallet laki aku yg 'kembung' dgn resit tu... (sbb dia mmg akan tumpang handbag aku barang2 dia mcm kunci keta, wallet, hp kalau dia pakai baju melayu... sbb dia taknak nampak samping dia ternaik... sabar jek laaa)...

p/s: gambar collage adalah utk menyingkatkan masa yg diambil utk mengupload gambar menggunakan WiMax aku yg tak berapa nak MAX ni!

Kecut Perut

2009-06-08T09:48:00.002+08:00

Salam...

OMG, they called me up yesterday... on Sunday! What kind of people goes to work on Sunday???
errrkkkk, HR people!
They told me to come for an innerview assessment... Remember my post on this? So they said I've been shortlisted for that post... yeay! (walaupon hanya shortlist sahaja)...

so I'm waiting for that moment at 11.30am... and it's only 9.50am... and my butterflies has beranak- pinak inside my tummy... crazy!

Bismillah...

p/s: kawan2ku... sorry di atas apa yg berlaku, impian kita utk berhorey2 harus ditangguhkan... maaffin aku ya!

on procrastination...

2009-06-02T13:42:00.002+08:00

Salam...

lambat, procrastinate, slow, tembelina... I fall in this category lately on my updates to the blog... been pretty busy with everything... work, life and my SIL's wedding which was held on the 30 & 31 May...

ok, tu je nak update... yg lain2 tu later neh? toodlessssssssssss.....

Tadaaaa...

2009-05-25T12:42:00.004+08:00

Salam...

yeayyyy... presenting my latest solution to the problem that I'm facing with my Iphone... (after couple of visits to the cutthroat 'piranhas' @ lowyat (tapi tak betul2 gak, lagi rosak ada laa)...

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LG Arena...

What makes me choose this new toy to replace the previous one? Coz they nicknamed this phone 'Iphone-3G-Killer' (sbb aku suka Iphone aku yg 2G tu, so kalau dah 3G pon dah ada pembunuhnya, apatah lagi version 'otai' aku tuh!)... read this to know further...

http://lgarenakm900.com/lg-arena-vs-iphone-3g/

p/s: I'm loving it... walaupon yup, it's not oooohhh, aaahhhhh like the first time you flirt with Iphone, but for me this is so perfect...

My 2nd Award

2009-05-22T21:14:00.003+08:00

Salam..

Thanks Fynn, utk award ni! (sambil cuba merangka2 ucapan mcm menang AIM artis baru terbaik)... ekekekkek

The Rules:

Nyatakan 5 fakta menarik tentang pemberi award ini:

1. Kenal thru sukan melompat ;) aka 'bloghopping'... saya suka penceritaan dia

2. Have same taste on baju anak (Gap- blue striped shirt... I love my AZA pakai ni)

3. Dia suka bag, saya suka jugak... dia boleh beli, saya kena tahan dulu keinginan saya (atas arahan BOD)

4. I think she's sweet... pandai mekap (bila laa nak pandai, mekap dah berkoyan2 dah ni)...

5. She writes all the nicest things about her sons, their progress, semua pasal anak2 and she's proud of that... which I think that's so awesome...

Setiap blogger mestilah menyatakan 10 fakta atau hobi diri sendiri sebelum

memilih penerima award yg seterusnya:

1. Saya suka makan... saya tak tau kenapa. Share hobby yg sama dgn suamiku, tu yg tak kurus2...

2. Saya suka amik gambar anak saya (dan kanak2 lain)... lps tu tgk muka dorang camana dalam screen...

3. Saya plan nak keja sendiri... saya dah takmo makan gaji, senang cita, saya nak jadik boss pada saya sendiri...

4. Saya suka masak... tapi saya selalu takde kelapangan waktu nak masak... nak2 ditambah pula rumah makbapak + makpakmertua sangat dekat dgn rumah kami... tambahan pula, kedua2 pihak ada kedai makan... bagaimanakah?

5. saya suka travel... tapi sebab kekurangan duit, saya mulakan dgn langkah2 yg dekat2 sahaja... walaupon ke bukit belachan sekalipon

6. Saya nak beli rumah.. dan nak jadik juruhias dalaman rumah saya sendiri... saya dah ada semua idea apa saya nak buat dgn rumah baru saya nanti.. tapi saya tak tau nak beli rumah apa/ dimana

7. Org selalu tgk saya susah marah, lebih kurang macam saya ni selalu act 'cool' laaa... (cool ke?) tapi saya boleh jadik mengterkejutkan... (tapi toksah test laa ;)

8. Kadang2 saya cuba nak keluar dari belenggu 't-shirt' bila keluar jalan2... (ubah sikap dress- down) tapi tak pernah boleh... last2 saya give- up... just be myself... wear what I'm comfortable with...

9. Saya nak anak2 yg ramai... mmg agak menakutkan dgn perbelanjaan yg semakin meningkat ini, tapi saya tetap suka rumah yg penuh... Insya Allah...

10. Perkenalan saya dan suami saya tidak akan menjadi tanpa bantuan rakan karib saya... Azm*h (sian kau... tak pasal2 kena pegi approach MAM cakap nak pinjam schook mag... ekekekek... apa punya reason laa.. tapi berjaya walaupon sungguh lame)... thanks Azm*h... LOVE YOU!

Anda perlu memilih 10 penerima award seterusnye dan describe tentang mereka :

1. Chah Shue - salah seorg BFF saya... banyak rahsia saya dan suami saya semasa zaman percintaan dulu ada di dalam poketnya!

2. Ratna - another BFF, anak2 dia sangat pwetty + hemsem! Dia seorg yg digilai ramai semasa sekolah... saya adalah salah sorang entouragenya... hahahah

3. Ieta S. - Lagi BFF, saya suka anak2nya yg ramai itu... dan dia akan mencuba lagi... yeay ieta... GO! GO!

4. Elin - kawan serumah di UiTM. Dia masih lagi mempunya badan saiz S seperti dulu (tidak seperti aku... macam pernah S dulu kan.. tapi kechik sikit la dari laa ni)

5. Cik Yaya - seorg pencomel! Semua bahasa2nya di dalam blog sangat comel!

6. Sha - kawan kenal dari blog... sangat meriah blognya dgn org ramai... saya suka!

7. Hanis - selama ni baca blog saja, sekali jumpa in person, she and her husband are just lovely...

8. Dnas (The Red Sandal Diaries)- saya suka penulisan dia jugak.. dia sangat bangga dgn darah Pahangnya...

9. Zal Alina - offers a helping hand yg tip- top kalau dimintak tolong... (dan kalau mood dia sangat ok laa time tu.. heheheh, kan zal?)

10. Kakiintan- blognya memberi banyak tips tentang masakan, dan saya rasa dia adalah tukang masak yg hebat... (saya tak pernah mencuba, tapi saya yakin!)

Sekian...

Ceritalah Lagi...

2009-05-20T10:25:00.002+08:00

Salam

(tajuk entry ini mengingatkan aku pada satu buku cerita masa kecik2... sangat suka!... ada lagi ke publisher tu eh?)

Sebelum tido, aku akan cuba sedaya- upaya bacakan bedtime storybook to AZA, kalau tak sempat baca (sbb dia yg tutup lampu, he decides tau) aku akan bercerita dgn dia... selalunya aku bercerita pasal aeroplace dan popeye... tak kiralaaa popeye tu naik aeroplane nak pegi sekolah ke (kaya betul popeye skarang), popeye jual kuih keliling kampung ke... aku akan tetap bercerita... kadang2 tu aku sengaja tukar karakter nama Ahmad ke, Abu ke... dia tetap nak nama popeye... layan jek laa..

until this one nite, at exactly 2 mlm yg lepas... aku pon cam biasa berceritalaaa dgn dia... bila dekat nak abis, AZA merengek... "Mommy, Adam want milk!"... aku balas, "Sabar ye, the story's not done yet"... tapi sbb aku kesian, aku pon terus endkan cerita aku tu dgn THE END (mmg aku make sure aku stress kan ayat ni, so that he knows it's finished)

then, aku senyap... aku nak tgk dia still lagi nak susu ke tak...

Suddenly... dgn suara dia yg perlahan2 ala2 separuh berbisik...
"Adam want milk... Adam pon cry... huhuhuhu... Tokwan pon tanya... Nape ni, Adam? Adam want milk laa Tokwan... Tokwan pon cry... huhuhuhu... THE END"...

Bravo anakku! You are one good storyteller and a joker... I love you, sweetheart!