Innalillah...

Salam...

My grandma (mom's side) lost her younger sister on Tuesday nite...
I rushed back with my mom and brothers back to mom's hometown in Malacca the next morning...
My husband couldn't join as he was having a presentation on the same morning...

I think... I am more saddened by the fact that my grandma lost her sister... they were close, they hung- out together (tak kemana pon, depan2 rumah masing2 jek, they live like 100m apart jek pon)... and my grandma is the bestest sister that anyone could have!

Imagine this, sometimes my mom and her siblings have some issues with their aunty (arwah)... so they told my grandma this and that... and my grandma would protect her sister and told her daughters/ sons to just forget about those things... so ended up my mom, aunties and uncles were like "apakah? sapa yg salah ni?" and my mom being among the eldest would talk to my grandma personally and said "cannot laa protect her like that, obviously she's wrong.. bla.. bla.. bla" and my grandma would just say, "Ye laaa, korang ada sesama korang, Aye (she use this to represent herself) ada sapa? Adik Aye ni sorang jek laaa... Sapa lagi nak jaga, kalau bukan Aye yg jaga?" My mom would just kept quiet everytime my grandma use this statement... :)

When I heard about her sister's passing, my mind was locked on my grandma... She must be devastated... and I love my grandma dearly... even when I saw her yesterday, I was 'this close' to cry...

Nenek, jangan sedih2 ok? Insya Allah nenek Lang ditempatkan bersama2 org2 beriman..., kita doakan yg terbaik utk dia... I love you, nenek!

Roz Remembers...

Salam...

I still remember very vividly on how I started my new chapter of life 7 years ago (1 Jan 2003)... I was anxious, elated and looking forward the moment I'd be called Mrs. Azlan...

Being married of course change your life 270 degrees (another 90 will still be the same for some ppl like me :) I learn new skills esp the one in the kitchen dept (my mom is a good cook, ok... can you blame me?), share bed with a guy (psst, being the only daughter I am) and few thousand things that I have to give and take with this particular person... Yeah, there were moments we couldn't stand each other because of some silly disagreements, but it was merely looking things from different perspectives...

I remembered my wedding preparations... Gosh! most people dread doing those things, from wedding dress, to catering, then the decos, the gifts (hantaran).. yada, yada, yada...

I was lucky (was I?) as I was thousands kilometers away from home, and all were done thru numerous phone calls, emails to approve invitation card's designs, and selecting gifts from Ebay... I think I've spent a lot of my then-scholarship money on phone cards and payphone... Urrghh, such a waste.

My then husband-to-be , my BFFs, my parents, siblings helped a lot! When I said a lot, yup.. without them, I would just come back home and got married in one of the masjids, and that's it!

Instead, I came back, did some fittings on my wedding dress (I encountered some chaotic moments, too) and voila! I was ready to get married with all the preps were smoothly planned by them... nice isn't it? So to all who have helped me, my gratitude is boundless. You've made my day!

The first 2 years of our marriage was somewhere across the ocean, away from the family, away from the friends that I could easily turn to if I have issues with my husband. Come to think of it, it was actually the best thing happened to us... We don't let other people meddle in our lives, we learn accepting each others' flaws, idiosyncracies and there were times we faced financial lackings, we never gave in, didn't call both parents to seek help. We just let things went easy... Alhamdulillah, that was precious...

We live to learn, and I learn how to be the best chef of the house (like we have more than 2 people staying with us!) But yeah, I wasn't ashamed to parade my food when there were gatherings, islamic classes or organizing lunch/ dinner at our place... I salute myself for that, hehehe...

So while I look back at those 7 years of happy moments and obstacles, I'd like to look forward for another 7 years and beyond with my wonderful, loved one... Azlan Mohammad, Insya Allah.

B, Happy 7th anniversary... I love you to zillions!

7 years and counting... aminnn!

Happy Birthday, B

Salam...

It was my dearest husband's birthday last Sunday...
He's 33 now, Alhamdulillah... Allah has granted good health, wealth and personality to this admirable man of mine... Syukur! Syukur!

B, I love you for what you are, thanks for having me in your life, adjusting yours just to fit mine... I may be stubborn, selfish and bad- mannered (ada ke?) but that was all purposely done to catch your attention... I liked it when you paid attention to me and only me, and I will always do...

I love you to the fullest... May our lives be filled with all the good things and showered with barakah... amin...

pssst: hadiah belum beli lagi laa.. tak tau nak beli apa :)

Alhamdulillah

Salam...

salah satu kejayaan saya di tahun baru ini adalah 'membooking'...
saya dah setuju dgn mmebuat keputusan utk ke sana hari Khamis yg lepas...
Insya Allah semuanya berjalan lancar...

oh ya... lagi satu 'alat mainan' saya dah dapat... Alhamdulillah...
Insya Allah boleh beli lagi... :)

Hammam & Gommage Spa

Salam...

Saya baru balik dari pegi bersantai... di spa... hmm, seronok!
It's a Morroccon type of spa, yg mana saya dan kawan segossip sepejabat saya dah mcm nenong2 di ofis, sebenarnya on cloud 9 sbb gaji masuk harini *ngeeee*...

jadi, terus laa saya apply cuti separuh hari, dan boss approve! mak aihh, gila best! apa lagi, bergegas kami ke Bangsar Village, sbb kat situ laa pot spanya! Never been there, but it was highly recommended by a friend yg dah pernah pegi ke sana (tapi saya yg recommend dia pegi sana... aikkk? cita zig- zag betul)... tapi mmg camtu laa cerita dia pon...

so once there, kami disuruh tukar baju, pakai all those disposable thingies, and robe...
then, di suruh masuk satu bilik oleh 2 mak arabs ni... one to handle me, another one to handle my friend.. then, she asked me to take off my robe... yikes! malunya!!! the room is actually a bilik mandi... but hi grade punya bilik mandi laaa, berlantaikan papan yg cun, dan ada tiling benches...
and dia suruh duduk atas bench belah sini, my friend bench belah sana... and they bathed us! double yikesssss!!! lagi malu besar... sbb they really bathed you, mcm mak mandikan anak!!! OMG, seriously malu hokey!!! u just sat there, and tunggu jek apa instructions dia... angkat tangan, nak basuh rambut, tutup mata... things like that.. haishhh...

then, bermula laaa era scrub... mak aih.. dia pakai sarung tangan yg mcm kertas pasir, perit tak ingat! but the result was good, in the sense you punya kulit after that mcm baby's bottom, bak kata org putih... but of course laa, the price you pay was seeing all the dead's skin yg bertaburan di atas tpt scrub itu... DAKI bak kata org melayu... sampailaa kawan I tu tak percaya punya laa banyak hasilnya, sbb secara logiknya dia kata hari2 dia scrub masa mandi pakai loofah, takkan masih banyak lagi daki? hahahhaa... funny, man!

then, acara massage plak.. bukan mak arab ni buat, some Pinoys maybe, sbb I tried to speak Malay with them, but no response.. I tried English, and their English sounded pelik sikit.. maybe laa kot.. aku pon takleh nak track bangsa apa dorang ni... but the massage was quite dissapointing, tak berapa kuat... bila mintak dikuatkan pon, waktu dekat2 nak abis...
tak kuat2 dorang pon, kami punya dengkuran masa dimassage tu, agak kuat laa jugak.. kah kah kah...

so for this experience, I would rate the place as 3/5... sbb massage tu pada aku yg penting... dimandikan tu mcm takde pasni pon takpe, tak boleh aku imagine aku kena dimandikan lagi oleh strangers... dia punya deco mmg cun laa kan, ye laa, Moroccan- themed... pastu the package is a bit pricey, since org dia pon imported nun jauh dari padang pasir, lagi satu disebabkan dia duk kat tpt posh tu kan... alaa Bangsar... so harga dia nun atas sikit dari yg biasa....

Pegi laa kalau korang nak rasa something new... selamat dimandikan! (yikes...! lain macam plak bunyinya)...

tempat berehat, in between sessions sambil minum teh & baklava sedap

kawan saya sedang menayang baklavanya... :)

Hafazan is Easy (HIE)

Salam...

Right after work yesterday, my hubby and I rushed to Coaching Zone, in Seri Kembangan (right after work tu takde laa, lps maghrib gak aku bertolak, redah hujan, halilintar, dan plg penting kat KL ialah redah banjir jem!)

We attended a session called Hafazan Is Easy, a method used by an ustaz in a tahfiz school in Besut, T'ganu (Ustaz ni nama dia Ust. Wan Zikri, muka mcm Mawi, serious tak tipu, but with kopiah, and a funny guy...) This session was organized by Coach Sha, a homeschool teacher cum mother to her 4 kids, who is also running this Coaching Zone company... she basically organize English classes for kids, parents and anybody who loves to learn English in fun ways...

You can view Coach Sha's website @ http://mycoachingzone.net/ or her blog @http://coachsha.wordpress.com/ .

Basically, this session introduce you ways of memorizing Quran, how one's can use their fullest brain capacity and capability to memorize the holy Quran... Come to think of it, everyone can and it is never too late... sebab Ustaz Zikry cakap, if you memorize an ayat a day, you'll memorize the whole book in 18 years! How amazing is that? So katalaa skarang aku 32, campur lagi 18 tahun? 50? ehh ok sangat laa tu kan kalau jadik hafizah masa umur cenggitu... Insya Allah...

hmmm... boleh ke? sometimes my brain pon cam ada mode idle2 dia gitu... :) Anyhow, when there's a will, there's a way, aight?

Doakan Ibu Mertuaku

Salam...

My MIL has been hospitalized for more than a week now... Demam, baik.. demam balik, baik balik (camtu jek laa hari2)... The dr. couldnt really tell what's wrong with her, except that she has viral infection due to diabetes... now she's only been prescribed with paracetamol and some antibiotics for the infection... (takkan ni jek, duduk lama2... pastu bayar mahal2...)

other than that, she's healthy (bila tak demam laa kan)... but knowing her, she's the type yg tak boleh duduk diam... and you know lah kan, kalau dah duduk kat hospital lama2, dari tak berapa sakit pon boleh jadik sakit... because of the environment! tu pon nasib baik that hospital tu ada kedai2 keliling dia, kadang2 tu kitorang seludup gak dia pegi makan2, or more to ambik2 angin... let her breathe udara luar... yg lagi tak menyesakkan dari udara dalam hospital...

I can see my MIL's spirit pon dah gradually turun... muka dah makin monyok tiap2 hari... kesian jugak kat dia.. hai laa dr... cepat2 laa kasik mak aku ni keluar... kesian laaa...

Nak Balik Raya...

Salam...

laa ni tgh relax2 kat rumah in- laws aku, sbb aku tgh tunggu time jek nak cabut balik kg...
kami sekeluarga (3 org jek pon) nak balik melaka, nak raya ngan nenek aku...
masalahnya, si suami balik2 ofis jek dah cakap dalam radio asik membebel pasal jammed di sana sini... esp semua exit2 yg keluar KL... haishhh... abis bila nak balik...?

aku pon bukan apa, lagi cepat sampai rumah nenek aku, lagi best kan? sure dekat dapur rumah nenek aku tu tgh hiruk- pikuk nenek, mak, makcik, pakcik aku, cousins tgh memasak... agaknya laa.. tu pon kalau semua balik..

lagi satu... aku nak cop port yg balik punya utk aku landing mlm ni... kalau aku lambat, mmg placing tak baik punya laa kan... sure jauh dari kipas... pastu bantal2 semua dah kena songlap ngan cousin2... aku ni plg penting kena ada 2 bantal... satu kat kepala, satu kat kaki kena kepit...
kalau tak, susah mau lelap...

ni dah kata nak tunggu agak2 traffic nak reda... abis pkl berapa mau sampe?

pada kawan2... selamat hari raya Aidil Adha... selamat makan daging korban banyak2... semoga ibadah korban diterima dan diredhai.. Insya Allah...

Kenapa eh?

Salam...

Lately anak aku suka menangis2 bila aku nak pegi kerja...
jenis yg meraung2 punya... aku pon tak paham...
all this while, kalau aku cakap nak pegi keja jek, dia cam... "ok, mommy... mommy want to go to work? OK boleh..."

tup... tup... dia sudah tukar "Jangan laa mommy, tak boleh pegi work..." pastu makin lama makin kuat desible dia.. haishhh... meruntun2 laa perasaan aku, esp bila aku dah masuk kereta, dan dia makin kuat teriak...

kenapa eh? takkan dah 2.5 tahun pon ada lagi that separation anxiety tu? hmmm, takde laa rimas, tapi kadang2 tu kesian... rasa nak call boss aku straight cakap "I EL laa harini, boss... anak I tak kasik pegi keja?" Boleh????

Moving forward...

Salam...

A short & simple question that I always ask myself...

How much money do I need to retire?

Most financial consultants that approached me (unit trust or insurance agent) said, "you will never know... but a million and above should be sufficient to sustain your retirement period"...

Do you agree with this?

Skarang dah mmg banyak pakai duit, dah tua lagi banyak pakai duit????

haisshhh takutttttt....!

Sedih lagi...

Salam...

Innalillah...
Allah knows best!

My nenek sedara passed away this morning, at 70... she was diagnosed with cancer (I think it was kidney, not so sure) a few days back...

Semoga Wan Enon ditempatkan di kalangan orang yg beriman, Insya Allah...

Patutlaaa syahdu :(

Salam...

hmmm, patut laa smalam rasa lain macam...

dalam lrt rasa sedih, sampai kat station tpt turun sedih lagi...
naik cab dari train station ke rumah, pon sedih lagi...
hari ni plak cam mendung2 rupa aku...

rupa2nya... lepas dikira2 balik... harini genap arwah bapak pegi pada-Nya 100 hari...

haishhh... memang laa syahdu :(

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Salam...

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Online Contest ~ Senyuman Ceria Si Comel

Salam...

My first time to enter blog contest... and of course, it involves my son!
(mommy's not exploiting you, honey... just wanna let people to know you, that's all! *bad grin*)...

This contest is organized by http://smileykidz.blogspot.com/. So, for those who thinks their kids has the most 'ceria' smile (which mother doesn't?), lets join the contest together. After all, it's not about the prizes jek, it's about you finding those thousands of pix of your kids and pick the best one to be submitted... hehhehehe... (aku pon naik juling dah ni)... then you reminisce the those times of the pix taken... owh rindunya zaman itu...

My golden son: Adam Zane Azlan bin Mohd Azlan.
DOB: 10 April 2007

pix taken here when he was 10-mo, 14-mo and 23-mo, respectively... Enjoy!

For T&C of the contest, please click this... or you can click the banner on the left- hand side.

Good luck, peeps!

p/s: Adam, kalau kita menang, kfc' treat on mommy, ok? (nasib baik dia suka kfc, kalau lagi gedevance??? haishhhhh....)

Sukar digambarkan...

Salam...

pernah rasa tak satu perasaan yg teramat BENGANG tapi tak boleh nak dilepaskan?
walaupon pada suami sendiri? (bukan marah kat dia pon)...

aku tgh dalam keadaan begitu skarang...
dalam keadaan yg sangat haru- biru yg pada aku, sapa2 pon aku taknak cakap/ jumpa?
tapi tak boleh! sebab dah kalau macam tu nak kena duduk gua laa pulak kan?

sebenarnya perasaan aku ni punca dia satu je... aku memang dah sampai tahap dengan KERJA aku skarang... sebabnya kami semua ni hanya mangsa keadaan!
dan biasalah, dah kalau dekat2 nak akhir tahun ni, apa lagi... ASSESSMENT lah!

dah kalau assessment di buat ke atas aku di atas kerja yang aku baru pertama kali buat (masa belajar pon tak pernah buat), dan yang aku rasa aku tak suka nak buat.... adakah dia akan menjadi BAIK, SEDERHANA atau TIDAK BAIK?

aku rasa aku duduk2 dalam kelompok TIDAK BAIK, walaupon ramai kawan2 aku cakap aku dalam kelompok SEDERHANA...

hmmm, aku hanya perlu tunggu dan lihat... apa2 pon, aku sendiri yang tahu tahap aku kat mana kan? tapi biasa laa.. dah kalau banyak orang kat atas tu sudah ramai mencium 'bo****'nya, adakah aku akan selamat?

tawakal ajelah!

Something Happen for a Reason

Salam...

Alhamdulillah... a close friend of mine has taken a major step in fulfilling her life.
A life- changing experience indeed!

She'll be having a SON soon, this November! Insya Allah...

For those who's pregnant, you may think this is just another phase that you'll go thru (Insya Allah), so what's so big deal about it?

But for a lady who's never been married, living in KL alone (parents staying outside of the city).. I think this is so challenging but yet something to look forward to, right babe? You know you have all the responsibilities in the world to give everything, to protect him for any danger or whatnot... (I can imagine you'll soon sound like me, like mak2 one!) hehehhehe

Whatever it is, I'll pray that you'll be the best mother to the child, provide him with love, guidance and toys (yeay, frequent visits to Toys 'R' Us together after this)... I am just a call away if you need help...

ooohhh even I can't wait to see her baby.. I've always liked babies... they are always sooo to look at, regardless of their backgrounds...

I want another one, pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..........

Why is it?

Salam...

not good... not good... not good...
that's all I can say...

Nurkasih

Salam...

uishhh, not embarass to admit that I'm one of their groupie... syahdu! syahdu!
and tonite episode 19 will be aired...
arrgghhh! can't wait... I'll be glued the whole hour...

*sebarang surat menyurat/ phone tidak akan dilayan dari 9pm-10pm...

si angau menulis,

Dah Lama Dah....

Salam...

Sorry, lama dah tak update...
saya takde laa beraya sakan, ala kadar sahaja...
tapi kemalasan saya seperti menonjolkan saya sangat2 teruja menyambut Aidilfitri...
biasa saja... takde yg lebih, takde yg kurang...

seminggu saya cuti raya... memang seronok... walaupon tak banyak berjalan raya, tapi kalau dah bercuti dari bertugas, mmg tiada yg lebih seronok dari itu...
semalam pon saya hampir2 nak menangis nak bangun dari katil, tapi kata2 perangsang dari suami buat saya berubah fikiran (terangsang ke?)... lebih kepada ucapan2 pedas jek!
sekali rasa anak saya badan cam panas2... bawak dulu ke klinik, pastu hantar pi rumah ibu mertuaku...

harini ofis buat open house... hmmm, ada plak PM datang... dapat laa saya bersalam ngan tangan dia yg lagi lembut dari mana2 calon gadis Melayu... perghh! moisturizer apakah yg dipakai? saya sudah banyak bertukar brand, tapi kadar poros saya masih tinggi juga... takpe laa, rezeki dia...
rezeki saya dapat belai suami saya... (tiada kena mengena ini cerita)... :)

ok... skarang saya sedang tunggu suami saya sampai... lepas tu saya nak layan dia makan pulak... sebab hari ni open house, saya tiada mood nak kerja...

oohh ok... dah sampai! tata...

Kemaafan Dipinta

Salam...

Tulat kita raya...

Esok aku nak balik kampung Melaka kejap... (jumpa nenek nak berbuka/ bersahur dgn dia, pastu balik KL balik, beraya di sini)..

Hari ni last day kerja...

Macam2 perasaan sekarang, bercampur- baur... suka, takde mood, teruja, sedih... semua ada...

Tahun ni turn suami... jadi beraya di KL laa kami... (tak pernah terpikir akan beraya di KL masa kecik2 dulu... sbb aku mmg terkenal di kalangan kawan2 aku, jenis yg kalau balik beraya, tak reti2 3-4 hari... mau seminggu cuti tu aku abiskan kat kampung... apa ada kat KL kalau beraya?)

tiba2 teringat kenangan masa kecik2 dulu bila balik beraya ke kampung terutama ke Alor Setar... perjalanan selalunya memakan masa lebih dari 8 jam, sbb arwah bapak tak bawah laju, dan kalau mlm, banyak berhenti makan2... no pressure katanya... tu tak masuk lagi kes2 yg tersadai tgh jalan sbb abis minyak! yaaa, kami sekeluarga mmg selalu tersadai sbb arwah bapak selalu rasa boleh sampai ke next stesen minyak walaupon masa tu lampu dia dah kelip2... hhehehe, bila terkenang balik, rasa kelakar... sbb time tu, mak aku akan ngomel2 cakap bapak aku over confident (masa ni bapak aku dah tumpang mana2 penunggang motosikal mintak dibawakan ke stesen terdekat nak beli minyak), dan kami adik beradik keluh kesah dalam kereta... panas lah! lapar lah! nak pegi toilet lah! lagi memanaskan perasaan mak aku... :)

sekarang kenangan tu tak mungkin berulang... kami pon dah lama tak balik AS, asyik ke Melaka saja... dekat, kalau paling lama pon sebab jem... 3 ke 4 jam mungkin... tapi tahun ni, mak taknak balik kampung dulu... pagi2 raya, mak nak bersama arwah bapak, menziarahi kubur arwah...

Raya kami dah tak seperti dulu... semuanya bermula di Kuala Lumpur sekarang...

Untuk semua kawan2... Selamat Hari Raya... maaf zahir dan batin... semoga persahabatan kita semakin erat... tidak kira di dunia realiti atau maya sekalipun... pada yang berkesempatan, datang laa rumah... sentiasa terbuka pada yg sudi...

Mak pasti merindui saat ini, dan aku juga... Ya Allah, hamba-Mu ini redha dengan segala ketentuan-Mu... kuatkan dan yakinilah imanku ini... aminnnn...

and family -xoxo-