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Online Contest ~ Senyuman Ceria Si Comel

Salam...

My first time to enter blog contest... and of course, it involves my son!
(mommy's not exploiting you, honey... just wanna let people to know you, that's all! *bad grin*)...

This contest is organized by http://smileykidz.blogspot.com/. So, for those who thinks their kids has the most 'ceria' smile (which mother doesn't?), lets join the contest together. After all, it's not about the prizes jek, it's about you finding those thousands of pix of your kids and pick the best one to be submitted... hehhehehe... (aku pon naik juling dah ni)... then you reminisce the those times of the pix taken... owh rindunya zaman itu...

My golden son: Adam Zane Azlan bin Mohd Azlan.
DOB: 10 April 2007

pix taken here when he was 10-mo, 14-mo and 23-mo, respectively... Enjoy!

For T&C of the contest, please click this... or you can click the banner on the left- hand side.

Good luck, peeps!

p/s: Adam, kalau kita menang, kfc' treat on mommy, ok? (nasib baik dia suka kfc, kalau lagi gedevance??? haishhhhh....)

Sukar digambarkan...

Salam...

pernah rasa tak satu perasaan yg teramat BENGANG tapi tak boleh nak dilepaskan?
walaupon pada suami sendiri? (bukan marah kat dia pon)...

aku tgh dalam keadaan begitu skarang...
dalam keadaan yg sangat haru- biru yg pada aku, sapa2 pon aku taknak cakap/ jumpa?
tapi tak boleh! sebab dah kalau macam tu nak kena duduk gua laa pulak kan?

sebenarnya perasaan aku ni punca dia satu je... aku memang dah sampai tahap dengan KERJA aku skarang... sebabnya kami semua ni hanya mangsa keadaan!
dan biasalah, dah kalau dekat2 nak akhir tahun ni, apa lagi... ASSESSMENT lah!

dah kalau assessment di buat ke atas aku di atas kerja yang aku baru pertama kali buat (masa belajar pon tak pernah buat), dan yang aku rasa aku tak suka nak buat.... adakah dia akan menjadi BAIK, SEDERHANA atau TIDAK BAIK?

aku rasa aku duduk2 dalam kelompok TIDAK BAIK, walaupon ramai kawan2 aku cakap aku dalam kelompok SEDERHANA...

hmmm, aku hanya perlu tunggu dan lihat... apa2 pon, aku sendiri yang tahu tahap aku kat mana kan? tapi biasa laa.. dah kalau banyak orang kat atas tu sudah ramai mencium 'bo****'nya, adakah aku akan selamat?

tawakal ajelah!

Something Happen for a Reason

Salam...

Alhamdulillah... a close friend of mine has taken a major step in fulfilling her life.
A life- changing experience indeed!

She'll be having a SON soon, this November! Insya Allah...

For those who's pregnant, you may think this is just another phase that you'll go thru (Insya Allah), so what's so big deal about it?

But for a lady who's never been married, living in KL alone (parents staying outside of the city).. I think this is so challenging but yet something to look forward to, right babe? You know you have all the responsibilities in the world to give everything, to protect him for any danger or whatnot... (I can imagine you'll soon sound like me, like mak2 one!) hehehhehe

Whatever it is, I'll pray that you'll be the best mother to the child, provide him with love, guidance and toys (yeay, frequent visits to Toys 'R' Us together after this)... I am just a call away if you need help...

ooohhh even I can't wait to see her baby.. I've always liked babies... they are always sooo to look at, regardless of their backgrounds...

I want another one, pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..........

Why is it?

Salam...

not good... not good... not good...
that's all I can say...

Nurkasih

Salam...

uishhh, not embarass to admit that I'm one of their groupie... syahdu! syahdu!
and tonite episode 19 will be aired...
arrgghhh! can't wait... I'll be glued the whole hour...

*sebarang surat menyurat/ phone tidak akan dilayan dari 9pm-10pm...

si angau menulis,

Dah Lama Dah....

Salam...

Sorry, lama dah tak update...
saya takde laa beraya sakan, ala kadar sahaja...
tapi kemalasan saya seperti menonjolkan saya sangat2 teruja menyambut Aidilfitri...
biasa saja... takde yg lebih, takde yg kurang...

seminggu saya cuti raya... memang seronok... walaupon tak banyak berjalan raya, tapi kalau dah bercuti dari bertugas, mmg tiada yg lebih seronok dari itu...
semalam pon saya hampir2 nak menangis nak bangun dari katil, tapi kata2 perangsang dari suami buat saya berubah fikiran (terangsang ke?)... lebih kepada ucapan2 pedas jek!
sekali rasa anak saya badan cam panas2... bawak dulu ke klinik, pastu hantar pi rumah ibu mertuaku...

harini ofis buat open house... hmmm, ada plak PM datang... dapat laa saya bersalam ngan tangan dia yg lagi lembut dari mana2 calon gadis Melayu... perghh! moisturizer apakah yg dipakai? saya sudah banyak bertukar brand, tapi kadar poros saya masih tinggi juga... takpe laa, rezeki dia...
rezeki saya dapat belai suami saya... (tiada kena mengena ini cerita)... :)

ok... skarang saya sedang tunggu suami saya sampai... lepas tu saya nak layan dia makan pulak... sebab hari ni open house, saya tiada mood nak kerja...

oohh ok... dah sampai! tata...

Kemaafan Dipinta

Salam...

Tulat kita raya...

Esok aku nak balik kampung Melaka kejap... (jumpa nenek nak berbuka/ bersahur dgn dia, pastu balik KL balik, beraya di sini)..

Hari ni last day kerja...

Macam2 perasaan sekarang, bercampur- baur... suka, takde mood, teruja, sedih... semua ada...

Tahun ni turn suami... jadi beraya di KL laa kami... (tak pernah terpikir akan beraya di KL masa kecik2 dulu... sbb aku mmg terkenal di kalangan kawan2 aku, jenis yg kalau balik beraya, tak reti2 3-4 hari... mau seminggu cuti tu aku abiskan kat kampung... apa ada kat KL kalau beraya?)

tiba2 teringat kenangan masa kecik2 dulu bila balik beraya ke kampung terutama ke Alor Setar... perjalanan selalunya memakan masa lebih dari 8 jam, sbb arwah bapak tak bawah laju, dan kalau mlm, banyak berhenti makan2... no pressure katanya... tu tak masuk lagi kes2 yg tersadai tgh jalan sbb abis minyak! yaaa, kami sekeluarga mmg selalu tersadai sbb arwah bapak selalu rasa boleh sampai ke next stesen minyak walaupon masa tu lampu dia dah kelip2... hhehehe, bila terkenang balik, rasa kelakar... sbb time tu, mak aku akan ngomel2 cakap bapak aku over confident (masa ni bapak aku dah tumpang mana2 penunggang motosikal mintak dibawakan ke stesen terdekat nak beli minyak), dan kami adik beradik keluh kesah dalam kereta... panas lah! lapar lah! nak pegi toilet lah! lagi memanaskan perasaan mak aku... :)

sekarang kenangan tu tak mungkin berulang... kami pon dah lama tak balik AS, asyik ke Melaka saja... dekat, kalau paling lama pon sebab jem... 3 ke 4 jam mungkin... tapi tahun ni, mak taknak balik kampung dulu... pagi2 raya, mak nak bersama arwah bapak, menziarahi kubur arwah...

Raya kami dah tak seperti dulu... semuanya bermula di Kuala Lumpur sekarang...

Untuk semua kawan2... Selamat Hari Raya... maaf zahir dan batin... semoga persahabatan kita semakin erat... tidak kira di dunia realiti atau maya sekalipun... pada yang berkesempatan, datang laa rumah... sentiasa terbuka pada yg sudi...

Mak pasti merindui saat ini, dan aku juga... Ya Allah, hamba-Mu ini redha dengan segala ketentuan-Mu... kuatkan dan yakinilah imanku ini... aminnnn...

and family -xoxo-

Iftar with the Besties

Salam...

It was chaotic last Sunday, we had potluck session for Iftar at my place...
with all the ladies dominating, what could the guys/ husbands say about it? Layan jek laaaa...

Thanks for the food... yours truly ini just prepared nasik lembik putih yg sedap, my signature fruit punch and a place to chill (chill sangat laa kan rumah aku tu)...
Noriz for the first time ever, prepared masak lemak daging salai... yummy! and Noriz, hope this won't be the last time... lepas ni ada lagi... :)

Ratna, your sambal ikan bilis was a bless... my metabolism rate went fast that time, nak lagi.. nak lagi.. dan lagi...

Azmah and your sup daging (or tulang?) Siam... serious yummylicious! feels like I ordered one from an authentic Thai restaurant...

Liza, yes... your chicken was grilled perfectly by Tesco... hehehe.. and your KFC mmg finger lickin' good... (takpe, you were sick... next time masak signature dish kau ok?)

and the kids... were adorable as always... and further thanks to Yani and her friend for becoming our distinguished guests... hehehehhe..

Harus pose sebelum azan...

then solat... sempat tgk camera lagi...

now it's makan time... F.A.M.I.S.H.E.D!

Double birthday celebration for me and Noriz...

Love you, babes! Muuaahhhhhhsss...

Saya nak Pandai

Salam...

OK, saya kena pegi kelas... saya nak pandai...
Cikgu Hanis, terimalah buah cempedak yg baru ini, boleh?

My Heartfelt Gratitude...

Salam...

B, thanks for the dinner last nite.. it was wonderful.. I loved it! I loved the place, the food, and of course.. the company, you and AZA! Although I am not fond of candle- lit dinner (you know we cant tolerate low brightness during our makan time), we couldn't help it... we tried requesting for a table lamp like some tables, but the guy said our plug point is out, so none for us... ergo the candle.... luckily our table moved from one lampu to another...

Again, I just wanna tell you that you really make my life at ease... u know lotsa things happened recently, from your father-in-law passing, to unsuccessful attempts of 'that'... You make me regain my stance.. and for that, my gratitude is boundless...

Thanks B for celebrating my 32nd birthday... I love you so much!

I love you both to infinity!

Kiciwa

Salam...

dah lama tak update... bukan malas... tapi takde mood...
selalu ada rasa nak tulis, tapi lepas tu terbantut...
tgh musim kiciwa sikit ni...

sabar ye, tak bulat takkan datang bergolek, yang pipih takkan datang melayang... Insya Allah...

Hadiah Buat Mak

Salam...

I bought my mom a new watch yesterday... I like it of course, it has sapphire glass, mother of pearl face and the numbers are diamond- like crystals... Personally I wont wear it cause it has smaller face that what I have now (I kan kurang kefimininannya)... but I know it suits my mom well...

Plus, 'twas on sale! Yup, sale! Not that I'm being cheap... but you know you cant resist that and mak was the first person that crossed my mind... even suamiku pon saya tidak membelikannya...

tapi I bought for him a nice pen... which he said to me this morning when I gave him that, "Thank you, Thank you... I love you..." I pitied him cause he never had a proper pen to sign documents... paling canggih pon dia ada yg gel pen berdakwat basah... tapi cap biasa jek laa, yg budak college pon can afford to buy sekali sedozen... reason being: dia kata beli mahal2 kang cepat hilang... so my dear, pls dont lose this S******* pen ye? jaga laa elok2 seperti anda menjaga saya...

back to mak's story, I gave it to her last nite... and said, "Nah mak, ni jam untuk raya, tapi pakai masa raya tau, bukan sekarang". And I can see her face lights up... best kan? ye laa walaupon jam tu bukan riban2 punya... but at least I can make her happy even for a short time after my bapak's passing... (alamak, tiba2 ter'emo')...

and today... I bought her a new pair of crocs... wah... sangat berbelanja sakan aku! takpe, untuk mak... sekali sekala...

Suffocated

Salam...

Now I put on face mask at the office, and it's like part of my daily dress code... Luckily it comes in 2 choices of colors only, white or green... if not, I'll definitely find other colors to match with my office attires :)

I feel suffocated... and light- headed sometimes... lack of oxygen, maybe? But I have to put it on, some of my collegues are confirmed positive with Influenza A... so that means, those little culprits are actually surrounding me... scary isn't it?

Ya Allah, selamatkanlah hamba Mu ini, dan ahli keluarganya, serta rakan2nya... amin...

IUI Procedures

Salam...

agak ramai org bertanya how does this procedure works... so seperti biasa, adalah malas penat utk saya menulis banyak kali , lagipon blog ini utk tatapan umum jua, I just penned everything here...

specifically this was done at LPPKN (Lembaga Penduduk something- something):

1st day of period: Called the clinic to set an appointment with the Dr. (dalam kejadian ini, aku 'kena' jumaat, so jumpa Senin)...

Appt Day: Consultation session with Dr. K. Dia kira itu, ini, yada yada... last2 dia prescribed Clomid (yg kena makan selama 5 days in a row) and Pregnol injection (3x, every other nite)... time ni bill around RM400.00. Then kena datang balik for ultrasound nak tgk the eggs.

2nd. Appt. Day: Dr. scanned me and said telur tak berapa matang, had to inject lagi sekali with Pregnol... then 2 days after that, I have to do another injection to release the eggs... then have to come for IUI procedure the next weeknya tu... Bill around RM300++ (ini dah termasuk tablets prescribed to kuatkan my rahim yg perlu dimakan a week after that IUI treatment)

IUI Day: Datang klinik pagi2 buta (dalam 7.30am) then tunggu turn buat IUI... Kos RM350.00
lepas tu, kita doa sama2, dan tawakkal pada Allah... it's all in His hands... Insya Allah...

kesimpulannya: ready2 jek laa dalam RM1500 for this whole thing... dan setakat yg I tau, it's more costly if you do it outside of LPPKN... ye laa, sbb LPPKN ni govt subsidized sikit... tapi tu laa, sbb dia cheaper than biasa2 ni, Q dia kadang2 boleh membuatkan blood go upstairs, tu tak masuk lagi Dr takde pegi course laa, amik cuti laaa, dah kena tunggu next cycle utk set another apptmt (tapi who are we pon nak complain2 sangat kan, bersyukur jek laa)...

juga perhatian pada kawan2 yg banyak makan clomid... tak tau laa kan, tapi I mmg mintak kat Dr. jgn prescribed clomid banyak2 kat I, sbb selepas makan tu, selera makanku mencanak2...
terus stress... :)

Insya Allah... teruskan usaha... and lets keep on doa to Him for He knows what He's doing... all the best!

Free Leave Today

Salam...

We have to go back and 'dilarang berkerja arahan' by the management (only applicable to my level, 7B)... Hooray! There was this one guy suspected of having H1N1 (he had all the symptoms)... kesian dia...
suka kena balik pon suka gak.. but I was kinda worried if let say the guy is positive with the virus, we are to be home- quarantined for 7 days, and not to have direct contact even with family members! Gila... macam mana nak main2 bergurau senda bersama l\keluarga?

But Alhamdulillah, I just received txt message from my director stated that we are required to come back to work tomorrow... that means that guy is negative.. Insya Allah...

so everybody, lets just be extra cautious... wear face mask ye!

And Ramadhan is Approaching...

Salam...

Errkk... it'll be less than 2 weeks before Ramadhan comes... and I still have 2 more days to replace my previous 'puasa'...

OK. MUST. PUASA. TOMORROW. NO EXCUSE. SAHUR. MALAM. NI. MAKAN. MAGGI. CUKUP!

then kena do your puasa nazar pulak, roz! haishhh.. tembelina betul!

Second Attempt

Salam...

Just came back from the clinic... Not an ordinary one, but LPPKN... so I'm set to perform my IUI next week on Monday... pray for me... I think now is the best time for AZA to have baby brother/ sister... Insya Allah...

For those who knew, even AZA was conceived thru this method... aku dan suamiku sudah hampir setahun menerai cara biasa, and I guess takde rezeki lagi... So, last resort we opted for IUI again... (I was diagnosed with lower progesterone, tu yg susah nak ovulate tu... hmmm, adakah hormon jantanku pulak yg tinggi? Tapi aku nak pakai kasut tumit tinggi... mana mungkin! Ntahlah!)

So friends, doakan kawan anda ini mendapat baby baru ye? Laki/ perempuan saya tidak kisah, yg penting HAPPY!!! Thanks!

Cerita lain pulak ----> AZA sometimes ask for his Tokwan.... waaa, mau cakap apa? I told him, Tokwan dah takde, and he asked back, "Kenapa?" I just told him, "Tokwan dah meninggal, tapi Tokwan dah tak sakit dah"... and he just said, "Kenapa, Mommy?"... Aiyoh...
how to tell laaaa... he even asked to go to my parents' house to see Tokwan and nak naik kereta Tokwan... anakku, ibumu ini juga merindui Tokwanmu itu...

Alhamdulillah, without fail... I'll make sure I'll visit kubur my dad at least once a day... Syukur sangat that his kubur dekat dengan jalan, dan tak perlu membuat sebarang pendakian... So itulah kelebihan boleh selalu pergi jenguk, Insya Allah... Tapi mamat yg nak bikin batu nisan + tapak tu kata menda2 tu akan siap seminggu jek (last week lagi dah jumpa dia dah)... sampai laa ni tak siap2 lagi... dah laa 2-3 hari ni hujan... dan nampak mendap tanah tu dah... haishhh...
"bang, deposit dah amik bang, cepat laa sikit... taknak mendap lagi tanah tu..."

Hari Ini

Salam...

Hari ini aku baru balik ofis... lps cuti seminggu last week, settle2kan hal arwah bapak...
pastu senin sampai tgh hari tadi, pegi course...
ni baru nak update blog yg agak2 hidup segan, mati tak mau ni...

haisshhh... life must go on, Roz!

Al- Fatihah untuk Bapak...

Salam...

my saddest day, 29 July 2009... The day I lost my father at 8.50pm... due to stroke (haemorrhage intra-cerebral bleed (ICB)...
I wish I could turn back time, and showered him with more love and affection...
but it is of course impossible to happen...

Bapak...
Roz mintak maaf atas semua kesalahan Roz... Roz sayang bapak... Halalkan makan minum Roz, dan semua benda yg pernah Roz buat sampai bapak kecik hati dgn Roz... semua tu adalah tanda Roz sayangkan bapak...
Bapak langsung takde buat salah dgn Roz... tapi Roz tau banyak Roz buat salah... semoga kita akan dipertemukan di hari kemudian, Insya Allah...

Ya Allah, tptkan bapakku di kalangan orang2 yg beriman... Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mengetahui...
Jauhkan laa dia dari segala siksaan kubur dan akhirat... berikanlah dia keselesaan dan ketenangan... Amin Ya Rabbalalamin...

Al- Fatihah...

related: http://rozrazalli.blogspot.com/2009/03/warkah-buat-bapakku.html