Roz Remembers...

Salam...

I still remember very vividly on how I started my new chapter of life 7 years ago (1 Jan 2003)... I was anxious, elated and looking forward the moment I'd be called Mrs. Azlan...

Being married of course change your life 270 degrees (another 90 will still be the same for some ppl like me :) I learn new skills esp the one in the kitchen dept (my mom is a good cook, ok... can you blame me?), share bed with a guy (psst, being the only daughter I am) and few thousand things that I have to give and take with this particular person... Yeah, there were moments we couldn't stand each other because of some silly disagreements, but it was merely looking things from different perspectives...

I remembered my wedding preparations... Gosh! most people dread doing those things, from wedding dress, to catering, then the decos, the gifts (hantaran).. yada, yada, yada...

I was lucky (was I?) as I was thousands kilometers away from home, and all were done thru numerous phone calls, emails to approve invitation card's designs, and selecting gifts from Ebay... I think I've spent a lot of my then-scholarship money on phone cards and payphone... Urrghh, such a waste.

My then husband-to-be , my BFFs, my parents, siblings helped a lot! When I said a lot, yup.. without them, I would just come back home and got married in one of the masjids, and that's it!

Instead, I came back, did some fittings on my wedding dress (I encountered some chaotic moments, too) and voila! I was ready to get married with all the preps were smoothly planned by them... nice isn't it? So to all who have helped me, my gratitude is boundless. You've made my day!

The first 2 years of our marriage was somewhere across the ocean, away from the family, away from the friends that I could easily turn to if I have issues with my husband. Come to think of it, it was actually the best thing happened to us... We don't let other people meddle in our lives, we learn accepting each others' flaws, idiosyncracies and there were times we faced financial lackings, we never gave in, didn't call both parents to seek help. We just let things went easy... Alhamdulillah, that was precious...

We live to learn, and I learn how to be the best chef of the house (like we have more than 2 people staying with us!) But yeah, I wasn't ashamed to parade my food when there were gatherings, islamic classes or organizing lunch/ dinner at our place... I salute myself for that, hehehe...

So while I look back at those 7 years of happy moments and obstacles, I'd like to look forward for another 7 years and beyond with my wonderful, loved one... Azlan Mohammad, Insya Allah.

B, Happy 7th anniversary... I love you to zillions!

7 years and counting... aminnn!

Happy Birthday, B

Salam...

It was my dearest husband's birthday last Sunday...
He's 33 now, Alhamdulillah... Allah has granted good health, wealth and personality to this admirable man of mine... Syukur! Syukur!

B, I love you for what you are, thanks for having me in your life, adjusting yours just to fit mine... I may be stubborn, selfish and bad- mannered (ada ke?) but that was all purposely done to catch your attention... I liked it when you paid attention to me and only me, and I will always do...

I love you to the fullest... May our lives be filled with all the good things and showered with barakah... amin...

pssst: hadiah belum beli lagi laa.. tak tau nak beli apa :)

Alhamdulillah

Salam...

salah satu kejayaan saya di tahun baru ini adalah 'membooking'...
saya dah setuju dgn mmebuat keputusan utk ke sana hari Khamis yg lepas...
Insya Allah semuanya berjalan lancar...

oh ya... lagi satu 'alat mainan' saya dah dapat... Alhamdulillah...
Insya Allah boleh beli lagi... :)

Hammam & Gommage Spa

Salam...

Saya baru balik dari pegi bersantai... di spa... hmm, seronok!
It's a Morroccon type of spa, yg mana saya dan kawan segossip sepejabat saya dah mcm nenong2 di ofis, sebenarnya on cloud 9 sbb gaji masuk harini *ngeeee*...

jadi, terus laa saya apply cuti separuh hari, dan boss approve! mak aihh, gila best! apa lagi, bergegas kami ke Bangsar Village, sbb kat situ laa pot spanya! Never been there, but it was highly recommended by a friend yg dah pernah pegi ke sana (tapi saya yg recommend dia pegi sana... aikkk? cita zig- zag betul)... tapi mmg camtu laa cerita dia pon...

so once there, kami disuruh tukar baju, pakai all those disposable thingies, and robe...
then, di suruh masuk satu bilik oleh 2 mak arabs ni... one to handle me, another one to handle my friend.. then, she asked me to take off my robe... yikes! malunya!!! the room is actually a bilik mandi... but hi grade punya bilik mandi laaa, berlantaikan papan yg cun, dan ada tiling benches...
and dia suruh duduk atas bench belah sini, my friend bench belah sana... and they bathed us! double yikesssss!!! lagi malu besar... sbb they really bathed you, mcm mak mandikan anak!!! OMG, seriously malu hokey!!! u just sat there, and tunggu jek apa instructions dia... angkat tangan, nak basuh rambut, tutup mata... things like that.. haishhh...

then, bermula laaa era scrub... mak aih.. dia pakai sarung tangan yg mcm kertas pasir, perit tak ingat! but the result was good, in the sense you punya kulit after that mcm baby's bottom, bak kata org putih... but of course laa, the price you pay was seeing all the dead's skin yg bertaburan di atas tpt scrub itu... DAKI bak kata org melayu... sampailaa kawan I tu tak percaya punya laa banyak hasilnya, sbb secara logiknya dia kata hari2 dia scrub masa mandi pakai loofah, takkan masih banyak lagi daki? hahahhaa... funny, man!

then, acara massage plak.. bukan mak arab ni buat, some Pinoys maybe, sbb I tried to speak Malay with them, but no response.. I tried English, and their English sounded pelik sikit.. maybe laa kot.. aku pon takleh nak track bangsa apa dorang ni... but the massage was quite dissapointing, tak berapa kuat... bila mintak dikuatkan pon, waktu dekat2 nak abis...
tak kuat2 dorang pon, kami punya dengkuran masa dimassage tu, agak kuat laa jugak.. kah kah kah...

so for this experience, I would rate the place as 3/5... sbb massage tu pada aku yg penting... dimandikan tu mcm takde pasni pon takpe, tak boleh aku imagine aku kena dimandikan lagi oleh strangers... dia punya deco mmg cun laa kan, ye laa, Moroccan- themed... pastu the package is a bit pricey, since org dia pon imported nun jauh dari padang pasir, lagi satu disebabkan dia duk kat tpt posh tu kan... alaa Bangsar... so harga dia nun atas sikit dari yg biasa....

Pegi laa kalau korang nak rasa something new... selamat dimandikan! (yikes...! lain macam plak bunyinya)...

tempat berehat, in between sessions sambil minum teh & baklava sedap

kawan saya sedang menayang baklavanya... :)

Hafazan is Easy (HIE)

Salam...

Right after work yesterday, my hubby and I rushed to Coaching Zone, in Seri Kembangan (right after work tu takde laa, lps maghrib gak aku bertolak, redah hujan, halilintar, dan plg penting kat KL ialah redah banjir jem!)

We attended a session called Hafazan Is Easy, a method used by an ustaz in a tahfiz school in Besut, T'ganu (Ustaz ni nama dia Ust. Wan Zikri, muka mcm Mawi, serious tak tipu, but with kopiah, and a funny guy...) This session was organized by Coach Sha, a homeschool teacher cum mother to her 4 kids, who is also running this Coaching Zone company... she basically organize English classes for kids, parents and anybody who loves to learn English in fun ways...

You can view Coach Sha's website @ http://mycoachingzone.net/ or her blog @http://coachsha.wordpress.com/ .

Basically, this session introduce you ways of memorizing Quran, how one's can use their fullest brain capacity and capability to memorize the holy Quran... Come to think of it, everyone can and it is never too late... sebab Ustaz Zikry cakap, if you memorize an ayat a day, you'll memorize the whole book in 18 years! How amazing is that? So katalaa skarang aku 32, campur lagi 18 tahun? 50? ehh ok sangat laa tu kan kalau jadik hafizah masa umur cenggitu... Insya Allah...

hmmm... boleh ke? sometimes my brain pon cam ada mode idle2 dia gitu... :) Anyhow, when there's a will, there's a way, aight?

Doakan Ibu Mertuaku

Salam...

My MIL has been hospitalized for more than a week now... Demam, baik.. demam balik, baik balik (camtu jek laa hari2)... The dr. couldnt really tell what's wrong with her, except that she has viral infection due to diabetes... now she's only been prescribed with paracetamol and some antibiotics for the infection... (takkan ni jek, duduk lama2... pastu bayar mahal2...)

other than that, she's healthy (bila tak demam laa kan)... but knowing her, she's the type yg tak boleh duduk diam... and you know lah kan, kalau dah duduk kat hospital lama2, dari tak berapa sakit pon boleh jadik sakit... because of the environment! tu pon nasib baik that hospital tu ada kedai2 keliling dia, kadang2 tu kitorang seludup gak dia pegi makan2, or more to ambik2 angin... let her breathe udara luar... yg lagi tak menyesakkan dari udara dalam hospital...

I can see my MIL's spirit pon dah gradually turun... muka dah makin monyok tiap2 hari... kesian jugak kat dia.. hai laa dr... cepat2 laa kasik mak aku ni keluar... kesian laaa...

Nak Balik Raya...

Salam...

laa ni tgh relax2 kat rumah in- laws aku, sbb aku tgh tunggu time jek nak cabut balik kg...
kami sekeluarga (3 org jek pon) nak balik melaka, nak raya ngan nenek aku...
masalahnya, si suami balik2 ofis jek dah cakap dalam radio asik membebel pasal jammed di sana sini... esp semua exit2 yg keluar KL... haishhh... abis bila nak balik...?

aku pon bukan apa, lagi cepat sampai rumah nenek aku, lagi best kan? sure dekat dapur rumah nenek aku tu tgh hiruk- pikuk nenek, mak, makcik, pakcik aku, cousins tgh memasak... agaknya laa.. tu pon kalau semua balik..

lagi satu... aku nak cop port yg balik punya utk aku landing mlm ni... kalau aku lambat, mmg placing tak baik punya laa kan... sure jauh dari kipas... pastu bantal2 semua dah kena songlap ngan cousin2... aku ni plg penting kena ada 2 bantal... satu kat kepala, satu kat kaki kena kepit...
kalau tak, susah mau lelap...

ni dah kata nak tunggu agak2 traffic nak reda... abis pkl berapa mau sampe?

pada kawan2... selamat hari raya Aidil Adha... selamat makan daging korban banyak2... semoga ibadah korban diterima dan diredhai.. Insya Allah...

Kenapa eh?

Salam...

Lately anak aku suka menangis2 bila aku nak pegi kerja...
jenis yg meraung2 punya... aku pon tak paham...
all this while, kalau aku cakap nak pegi keja jek, dia cam... "ok, mommy... mommy want to go to work? OK boleh..."

tup... tup... dia sudah tukar "Jangan laa mommy, tak boleh pegi work..." pastu makin lama makin kuat desible dia.. haishhh... meruntun2 laa perasaan aku, esp bila aku dah masuk kereta, dan dia makin kuat teriak...

kenapa eh? takkan dah 2.5 tahun pon ada lagi that separation anxiety tu? hmmm, takde laa rimas, tapi kadang2 tu kesian... rasa nak call boss aku straight cakap "I EL laa harini, boss... anak I tak kasik pegi keja?" Boleh????

Moving forward...

Salam...

A short & simple question that I always ask myself...

How much money do I need to retire?

Most financial consultants that approached me (unit trust or insurance agent) said, "you will never know... but a million and above should be sufficient to sustain your retirement period"...

Do you agree with this?

Skarang dah mmg banyak pakai duit, dah tua lagi banyak pakai duit????

haisshhh takutttttt....!

Sedih lagi...

Salam...

Innalillah...
Allah knows best!

My nenek sedara passed away this morning, at 70... she was diagnosed with cancer (I think it was kidney, not so sure) a few days back...

Semoga Wan Enon ditempatkan di kalangan orang yg beriman, Insya Allah...

Patutlaaa syahdu :(

Salam...

hmmm, patut laa smalam rasa lain macam...

dalam lrt rasa sedih, sampai kat station tpt turun sedih lagi...
naik cab dari train station ke rumah, pon sedih lagi...
hari ni plak cam mendung2 rupa aku...

rupa2nya... lepas dikira2 balik... harini genap arwah bapak pegi pada-Nya 100 hari...

haishhh... memang laa syahdu :(

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Salam...

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Online Contest ~ Senyuman Ceria Si Comel

Salam...

My first time to enter blog contest... and of course, it involves my son!
(mommy's not exploiting you, honey... just wanna let people to know you, that's all! *bad grin*)...

This contest is organized by http://smileykidz.blogspot.com/. So, for those who thinks their kids has the most 'ceria' smile (which mother doesn't?), lets join the contest together. After all, it's not about the prizes jek, it's about you finding those thousands of pix of your kids and pick the best one to be submitted... hehhehehe... (aku pon naik juling dah ni)... then you reminisce the those times of the pix taken... owh rindunya zaman itu...

My golden son: Adam Zane Azlan bin Mohd Azlan.
DOB: 10 April 2007

pix taken here when he was 10-mo, 14-mo and 23-mo, respectively... Enjoy!

For T&C of the contest, please click this... or you can click the banner on the left- hand side.

Good luck, peeps!

p/s: Adam, kalau kita menang, kfc' treat on mommy, ok? (nasib baik dia suka kfc, kalau lagi gedevance??? haishhhhh....)

Sukar digambarkan...

Salam...

pernah rasa tak satu perasaan yg teramat BENGANG tapi tak boleh nak dilepaskan?
walaupon pada suami sendiri? (bukan marah kat dia pon)...

aku tgh dalam keadaan begitu skarang...
dalam keadaan yg sangat haru- biru yg pada aku, sapa2 pon aku taknak cakap/ jumpa?
tapi tak boleh! sebab dah kalau macam tu nak kena duduk gua laa pulak kan?

sebenarnya perasaan aku ni punca dia satu je... aku memang dah sampai tahap dengan KERJA aku skarang... sebabnya kami semua ni hanya mangsa keadaan!
dan biasalah, dah kalau dekat2 nak akhir tahun ni, apa lagi... ASSESSMENT lah!

dah kalau assessment di buat ke atas aku di atas kerja yang aku baru pertama kali buat (masa belajar pon tak pernah buat), dan yang aku rasa aku tak suka nak buat.... adakah dia akan menjadi BAIK, SEDERHANA atau TIDAK BAIK?

aku rasa aku duduk2 dalam kelompok TIDAK BAIK, walaupon ramai kawan2 aku cakap aku dalam kelompok SEDERHANA...

hmmm, aku hanya perlu tunggu dan lihat... apa2 pon, aku sendiri yang tahu tahap aku kat mana kan? tapi biasa laa.. dah kalau banyak orang kat atas tu sudah ramai mencium 'bo****'nya, adakah aku akan selamat?

tawakal ajelah!

Something Happen for a Reason

Salam...

Alhamdulillah... a close friend of mine has taken a major step in fulfilling her life.
A life- changing experience indeed!

She'll be having a SON soon, this November! Insya Allah...

For those who's pregnant, you may think this is just another phase that you'll go thru (Insya Allah), so what's so big deal about it?

But for a lady who's never been married, living in KL alone (parents staying outside of the city).. I think this is so challenging but yet something to look forward to, right babe? You know you have all the responsibilities in the world to give everything, to protect him for any danger or whatnot... (I can imagine you'll soon sound like me, like mak2 one!) hehehhehe

Whatever it is, I'll pray that you'll be the best mother to the child, provide him with love, guidance and toys (yeay, frequent visits to Toys 'R' Us together after this)... I am just a call away if you need help...

ooohhh even I can't wait to see her baby.. I've always liked babies... they are always sooo to look at, regardless of their backgrounds...

I want another one, pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..........

Why is it?

Salam...

not good... not good... not good...
that's all I can say...

Nurkasih

Salam...

uishhh, not embarass to admit that I'm one of their groupie... syahdu! syahdu!
and tonite episode 19 will be aired...
arrgghhh! can't wait... I'll be glued the whole hour...

*sebarang surat menyurat/ phone tidak akan dilayan dari 9pm-10pm...

si angau menulis,

Dah Lama Dah....

Salam...

Sorry, lama dah tak update...
saya takde laa beraya sakan, ala kadar sahaja...
tapi kemalasan saya seperti menonjolkan saya sangat2 teruja menyambut Aidilfitri...
biasa saja... takde yg lebih, takde yg kurang...

seminggu saya cuti raya... memang seronok... walaupon tak banyak berjalan raya, tapi kalau dah bercuti dari bertugas, mmg tiada yg lebih seronok dari itu...
semalam pon saya hampir2 nak menangis nak bangun dari katil, tapi kata2 perangsang dari suami buat saya berubah fikiran (terangsang ke?)... lebih kepada ucapan2 pedas jek!
sekali rasa anak saya badan cam panas2... bawak dulu ke klinik, pastu hantar pi rumah ibu mertuaku...

harini ofis buat open house... hmmm, ada plak PM datang... dapat laa saya bersalam ngan tangan dia yg lagi lembut dari mana2 calon gadis Melayu... perghh! moisturizer apakah yg dipakai? saya sudah banyak bertukar brand, tapi kadar poros saya masih tinggi juga... takpe laa, rezeki dia...
rezeki saya dapat belai suami saya... (tiada kena mengena ini cerita)... :)

ok... skarang saya sedang tunggu suami saya sampai... lepas tu saya nak layan dia makan pulak... sebab hari ni open house, saya tiada mood nak kerja...

oohh ok... dah sampai! tata...

Kemaafan Dipinta

Salam...

Tulat kita raya...

Esok aku nak balik kampung Melaka kejap... (jumpa nenek nak berbuka/ bersahur dgn dia, pastu balik KL balik, beraya di sini)..

Hari ni last day kerja...

Macam2 perasaan sekarang, bercampur- baur... suka, takde mood, teruja, sedih... semua ada...

Tahun ni turn suami... jadi beraya di KL laa kami... (tak pernah terpikir akan beraya di KL masa kecik2 dulu... sbb aku mmg terkenal di kalangan kawan2 aku, jenis yg kalau balik beraya, tak reti2 3-4 hari... mau seminggu cuti tu aku abiskan kat kampung... apa ada kat KL kalau beraya?)

tiba2 teringat kenangan masa kecik2 dulu bila balik beraya ke kampung terutama ke Alor Setar... perjalanan selalunya memakan masa lebih dari 8 jam, sbb arwah bapak tak bawah laju, dan kalau mlm, banyak berhenti makan2... no pressure katanya... tu tak masuk lagi kes2 yg tersadai tgh jalan sbb abis minyak! yaaa, kami sekeluarga mmg selalu tersadai sbb arwah bapak selalu rasa boleh sampai ke next stesen minyak walaupon masa tu lampu dia dah kelip2... hhehehe, bila terkenang balik, rasa kelakar... sbb time tu, mak aku akan ngomel2 cakap bapak aku over confident (masa ni bapak aku dah tumpang mana2 penunggang motosikal mintak dibawakan ke stesen terdekat nak beli minyak), dan kami adik beradik keluh kesah dalam kereta... panas lah! lapar lah! nak pegi toilet lah! lagi memanaskan perasaan mak aku... :)

sekarang kenangan tu tak mungkin berulang... kami pon dah lama tak balik AS, asyik ke Melaka saja... dekat, kalau paling lama pon sebab jem... 3 ke 4 jam mungkin... tapi tahun ni, mak taknak balik kampung dulu... pagi2 raya, mak nak bersama arwah bapak, menziarahi kubur arwah...

Raya kami dah tak seperti dulu... semuanya bermula di Kuala Lumpur sekarang...

Untuk semua kawan2... Selamat Hari Raya... maaf zahir dan batin... semoga persahabatan kita semakin erat... tidak kira di dunia realiti atau maya sekalipun... pada yang berkesempatan, datang laa rumah... sentiasa terbuka pada yg sudi...

Mak pasti merindui saat ini, dan aku juga... Ya Allah, hamba-Mu ini redha dengan segala ketentuan-Mu... kuatkan dan yakinilah imanku ini... aminnnn...

and family -xoxo-

Iftar with the Besties

Salam...

It was chaotic last Sunday, we had potluck session for Iftar at my place...
with all the ladies dominating, what could the guys/ husbands say about it? Layan jek laaaa...

Thanks for the food... yours truly ini just prepared nasik lembik putih yg sedap, my signature fruit punch and a place to chill (chill sangat laa kan rumah aku tu)...
Noriz for the first time ever, prepared masak lemak daging salai... yummy! and Noriz, hope this won't be the last time... lepas ni ada lagi... :)

Ratna, your sambal ikan bilis was a bless... my metabolism rate went fast that time, nak lagi.. nak lagi.. dan lagi...

Azmah and your sup daging (or tulang?) Siam... serious yummylicious! feels like I ordered one from an authentic Thai restaurant...

Liza, yes... your chicken was grilled perfectly by Tesco... hehehe.. and your KFC mmg finger lickin' good... (takpe, you were sick... next time masak signature dish kau ok?)

and the kids... were adorable as always... and further thanks to Yani and her friend for becoming our distinguished guests... hehehehhe..

Harus pose sebelum azan...

then solat... sempat tgk camera lagi...

now it's makan time... F.A.M.I.S.H.E.D!

Double birthday celebration for me and Noriz...

Love you, babes! Muuaahhhhhhsss...

Saya nak Pandai

Salam...

OK, saya kena pegi kelas... saya nak pandai...
Cikgu Hanis, terimalah buah cempedak yg baru ini, boleh?

My Heartfelt Gratitude...

Salam...

B, thanks for the dinner last nite.. it was wonderful.. I loved it! I loved the place, the food, and of course.. the company, you and AZA! Although I am not fond of candle- lit dinner (you know we cant tolerate low brightness during our makan time), we couldn't help it... we tried requesting for a table lamp like some tables, but the guy said our plug point is out, so none for us... ergo the candle.... luckily our table moved from one lampu to another...

Again, I just wanna tell you that you really make my life at ease... u know lotsa things happened recently, from your father-in-law passing, to unsuccessful attempts of 'that'... You make me regain my stance.. and for that, my gratitude is boundless...

Thanks B for celebrating my 32nd birthday... I love you so much!

I love you both to infinity!

Kiciwa

Salam...

dah lama tak update... bukan malas... tapi takde mood...
selalu ada rasa nak tulis, tapi lepas tu terbantut...
tgh musim kiciwa sikit ni...

sabar ye, tak bulat takkan datang bergolek, yang pipih takkan datang melayang... Insya Allah...

Hadiah Buat Mak

Salam...

I bought my mom a new watch yesterday... I like it of course, it has sapphire glass, mother of pearl face and the numbers are diamond- like crystals... Personally I wont wear it cause it has smaller face that what I have now (I kan kurang kefimininannya)... but I know it suits my mom well...

Plus, 'twas on sale! Yup, sale! Not that I'm being cheap... but you know you cant resist that and mak was the first person that crossed my mind... even suamiku pon saya tidak membelikannya...

tapi I bought for him a nice pen... which he said to me this morning when I gave him that, "Thank you, Thank you... I love you..." I pitied him cause he never had a proper pen to sign documents... paling canggih pon dia ada yg gel pen berdakwat basah... tapi cap biasa jek laa, yg budak college pon can afford to buy sekali sedozen... reason being: dia kata beli mahal2 kang cepat hilang... so my dear, pls dont lose this S******* pen ye? jaga laa elok2 seperti anda menjaga saya...

back to mak's story, I gave it to her last nite... and said, "Nah mak, ni jam untuk raya, tapi pakai masa raya tau, bukan sekarang". And I can see her face lights up... best kan? ye laa walaupon jam tu bukan riban2 punya... but at least I can make her happy even for a short time after my bapak's passing... (alamak, tiba2 ter'emo')...

and today... I bought her a new pair of crocs... wah... sangat berbelanja sakan aku! takpe, untuk mak... sekali sekala...

Suffocated

Salam...

Now I put on face mask at the office, and it's like part of my daily dress code... Luckily it comes in 2 choices of colors only, white or green... if not, I'll definitely find other colors to match with my office attires :)

I feel suffocated... and light- headed sometimes... lack of oxygen, maybe? But I have to put it on, some of my collegues are confirmed positive with Influenza A... so that means, those little culprits are actually surrounding me... scary isn't it?

Ya Allah, selamatkanlah hamba Mu ini, dan ahli keluarganya, serta rakan2nya... amin...

IUI Procedures

Salam...

agak ramai org bertanya how does this procedure works... so seperti biasa, adalah malas penat utk saya menulis banyak kali , lagipon blog ini utk tatapan umum jua, I just penned everything here...

specifically this was done at LPPKN (Lembaga Penduduk something- something):

1st day of period: Called the clinic to set an appointment with the Dr. (dalam kejadian ini, aku 'kena' jumaat, so jumpa Senin)...

Appt Day: Consultation session with Dr. K. Dia kira itu, ini, yada yada... last2 dia prescribed Clomid (yg kena makan selama 5 days in a row) and Pregnol injection (3x, every other nite)... time ni bill around RM400.00. Then kena datang balik for ultrasound nak tgk the eggs.

2nd. Appt. Day: Dr. scanned me and said telur tak berapa matang, had to inject lagi sekali with Pregnol... then 2 days after that, I have to do another injection to release the eggs... then have to come for IUI procedure the next weeknya tu... Bill around RM300++ (ini dah termasuk tablets prescribed to kuatkan my rahim yg perlu dimakan a week after that IUI treatment)

IUI Day: Datang klinik pagi2 buta (dalam 7.30am) then tunggu turn buat IUI... Kos RM350.00
lepas tu, kita doa sama2, dan tawakkal pada Allah... it's all in His hands... Insya Allah...

kesimpulannya: ready2 jek laa dalam RM1500 for this whole thing... dan setakat yg I tau, it's more costly if you do it outside of LPPKN... ye laa, sbb LPPKN ni govt subsidized sikit... tapi tu laa, sbb dia cheaper than biasa2 ni, Q dia kadang2 boleh membuatkan blood go upstairs, tu tak masuk lagi Dr takde pegi course laa, amik cuti laaa, dah kena tunggu next cycle utk set another apptmt (tapi who are we pon nak complain2 sangat kan, bersyukur jek laa)...

juga perhatian pada kawan2 yg banyak makan clomid... tak tau laa kan, tapi I mmg mintak kat Dr. jgn prescribed clomid banyak2 kat I, sbb selepas makan tu, selera makanku mencanak2...
terus stress... :)

Insya Allah... teruskan usaha... and lets keep on doa to Him for He knows what He's doing... all the best!

Free Leave Today

Salam...

We have to go back and 'dilarang berkerja arahan' by the management (only applicable to my level, 7B)... Hooray! There was this one guy suspected of having H1N1 (he had all the symptoms)... kesian dia...
suka kena balik pon suka gak.. but I was kinda worried if let say the guy is positive with the virus, we are to be home- quarantined for 7 days, and not to have direct contact even with family members! Gila... macam mana nak main2 bergurau senda bersama l\keluarga?

But Alhamdulillah, I just received txt message from my director stated that we are required to come back to work tomorrow... that means that guy is negative.. Insya Allah...

so everybody, lets just be extra cautious... wear face mask ye!

And Ramadhan is Approaching...

Salam...

Errkk... it'll be less than 2 weeks before Ramadhan comes... and I still have 2 more days to replace my previous 'puasa'...

OK. MUST. PUASA. TOMORROW. NO EXCUSE. SAHUR. MALAM. NI. MAKAN. MAGGI. CUKUP!

then kena do your puasa nazar pulak, roz! haishhh.. tembelina betul!

Second Attempt

Salam...

Just came back from the clinic... Not an ordinary one, but LPPKN... so I'm set to perform my IUI next week on Monday... pray for me... I think now is the best time for AZA to have baby brother/ sister... Insya Allah...

For those who knew, even AZA was conceived thru this method... aku dan suamiku sudah hampir setahun menerai cara biasa, and I guess takde rezeki lagi... So, last resort we opted for IUI again... (I was diagnosed with lower progesterone, tu yg susah nak ovulate tu... hmmm, adakah hormon jantanku pulak yg tinggi? Tapi aku nak pakai kasut tumit tinggi... mana mungkin! Ntahlah!)

So friends, doakan kawan anda ini mendapat baby baru ye? Laki/ perempuan saya tidak kisah, yg penting HAPPY!!! Thanks!

Cerita lain pulak ----> AZA sometimes ask for his Tokwan.... waaa, mau cakap apa? I told him, Tokwan dah takde, and he asked back, "Kenapa?" I just told him, "Tokwan dah meninggal, tapi Tokwan dah tak sakit dah"... and he just said, "Kenapa, Mommy?"... Aiyoh...
how to tell laaaa... he even asked to go to my parents' house to see Tokwan and nak naik kereta Tokwan... anakku, ibumu ini juga merindui Tokwanmu itu...

Alhamdulillah, without fail... I'll make sure I'll visit kubur my dad at least once a day... Syukur sangat that his kubur dekat dengan jalan, dan tak perlu membuat sebarang pendakian... So itulah kelebihan boleh selalu pergi jenguk, Insya Allah... Tapi mamat yg nak bikin batu nisan + tapak tu kata menda2 tu akan siap seminggu jek (last week lagi dah jumpa dia dah)... sampai laa ni tak siap2 lagi... dah laa 2-3 hari ni hujan... dan nampak mendap tanah tu dah... haishhh...
"bang, deposit dah amik bang, cepat laa sikit... taknak mendap lagi tanah tu..."

Hari Ini

Salam...

Hari ini aku baru balik ofis... lps cuti seminggu last week, settle2kan hal arwah bapak...
pastu senin sampai tgh hari tadi, pegi course...
ni baru nak update blog yg agak2 hidup segan, mati tak mau ni...

haisshhh... life must go on, Roz!

Al- Fatihah untuk Bapak...

Salam...

my saddest day, 29 July 2009... The day I lost my father at 8.50pm... due to stroke (haemorrhage intra-cerebral bleed (ICB)...
I wish I could turn back time, and showered him with more love and affection...
but it is of course impossible to happen...

Bapak...
Roz mintak maaf atas semua kesalahan Roz... Roz sayang bapak... Halalkan makan minum Roz, dan semua benda yg pernah Roz buat sampai bapak kecik hati dgn Roz... semua tu adalah tanda Roz sayangkan bapak...
Bapak langsung takde buat salah dgn Roz... tapi Roz tau banyak Roz buat salah... semoga kita akan dipertemukan di hari kemudian, Insya Allah...

Ya Allah, tptkan bapakku di kalangan orang2 yg beriman... Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mengetahui...
Jauhkan laa dia dari segala siksaan kubur dan akhirat... berikanlah dia keselesaan dan ketenangan... Amin Ya Rabbalalamin...

Al- Fatihah...

related: http://rozrazalli.blogspot.com/2009/03/warkah-buat-bapakku.html

Official Result...

Salam...

ni bukan ulasan perlawanan bola semalam (MU vs MAS)... aku pon taknak ulas team 'setan merah' biasa2 tu... sangat tak tersentuh dorang tu kalau ditengok barang sejam dua, gaji jek over 2 sampai ampat ribu pound! Wow! - Husin Lempoyang

This one refers to the result of the job interview that I had last 2 weeks (ke lebey?) I Didn't get it! Sedih tu mmg sedih, but what can you do pon, it's fated... redha jek laa... probably there's more exciting things waiting for me along the way, Insya Allah...

semalam jugak saya telah mendapat tiket concert 1 Wajah M.Nasir secara percuma untuk mengubat hati yg luka... bukan 1 tapi 2... akan ku pergi melepaskan ke'frust'an aku di situ...
OK, signing off... nak pegi beli kain batik lepas satu... Nusantara kan? Feel kena ada...

p/s: Bila laa batu atas kepala ni mau turun? sakit laa dey!

Check- In Hotel Hospital Lagi

Salam...

I was away for few days, 4 to be exact... anak lelaki kemanjaanku masuk rumah sakit... poor him! He had this 'ketumbit' on his right eye (I tak google laa 'ketumbit' apa in English... anyone knows? Thanks!)...

Hubby brought him to the clinic (ibunya ke ofis, carik rezeki...errkkk! terbalik!) then, the Dr. referred him to the specialist... lps sessi2 tgk2 kesakitan kat belah mana, terus warded! So when it comes to take care of the sick child(ren), harus laaa mak2 yg mengsacrifice cuti tahunan dia utk menjaga anak itu kan? So, I'm now left with 13 days of my annual leave after deducting that "Hari Penjagaan Anak di Hospital" for 3 days... takpe, anak punya pasal!

The best part, ingatkan ketumbit2 biasa... sekali sampai kena minor surgery (ketumbit giant sebenarnya)... I almost changed my mind when I signed the consent form... ye laa, kecik2 dah nak masuk OT... mak dia umur 30 thn baru kena operate2 ni semua.. tu pon sbb nak beranakkan dia...

Alhamdulillah... my son is now recuperating... how? by jumping/ climbing here and there...
get well ok, abang AZA! (dia dah perasan dia abang dah.. cannot call him baby no more!) mentang2 dah masuk jawi, cepat ajek perasan dah besar... iskkk!

hari pertama di hospital... mcm tak sakit... tapi muka Dr. masa mula2 tengok, cam serius... siap berkerut2... haisshhh!

Destination: OT. Mood: OK ajek. Bubbly & excited to see the Dr.

Mood Mak & Bapak: LEMBIK LUTUT!

Time lalok dah abis... Happy jek! Dgn aku2 sekali buat perangai kat sebelah... (gambar takleh tunjuk, nanti tak lalu makan.. ekekek)

p/s: To Dato' Dr. Baljit and nurses of APSH, thanks a lot... for making our stay a memorable one! (walaupon tak manis @ pahit sangat... tapi nak make sure anak aku sihat pon dah syukur...) Semoga mata anakku tak ceme lagi... Love you, AZA!

I AM TAKING THE PLUNGE!

salam...

Ya Allah, please give me strength and success in pursuing this... I am doing this is for You and for the family's betterment...

Please let me equipped with all the knowledge, the techniques (or tactics) and be okay with rejection(s)... Amin...

p/s: I guess I am really doing this, as firman Allah: "Allah tidak akan sesekali mengubah nasib mereka jika mereka tidak mengubah nasib mereka"...